Depth Perception

Been Awhile

2011-06-12T17:16:00.002-04:00

Ok, since I've just been listed as a blog she follows on my wife's new blog, it's time to shake some dust off this one.

I don't have much to say at the moment, but this is an update.

I'm about to begin a journey of working out and trying to get back in some shape, mainly cardiovascular health. Going to the gym now. Will speak with you later.

Thrashers Game

2010-03-14T23:29:00.003-04:00

OK... the scene is again @ Philips Arena. This time for the Thrashers game vs. the Phoenix Coyotes. We had a blast. The live games are such an experience. Following the team on TV games is enjoyable, but being there is the best. What was really amazing was having my entire family there this time. Although we lost in a shootout, the game was a good one. The best was when we scored our 2nd goal. Amazing play by our guys.

It was great for the older kids. They both got jerseys (30% off that night!) and were loving it. Afterwards, we ate dinner @ Taco Mac. Upon leaving, Zoe had left her Thrashers hat in the restaurant. We drove back, Laura went in to check and..... she found the hat. Zoe was really grateful.

All in all, a wonderful time. I hope to return again very soon. We just need to win then.

Circus Reflections

2010-02-20T21:26:00.002-05:00

Well, we've made a trip down to Atlanta to see the circus. That's one under our belts.

I remember going when I was a kid. Really young. I remember it being dark. And I think we saw the motorcycles-in-the-cage thing. Also, I remember looking at the massive, collector's edition Program when I got home.

When we first got there today, we headed directly to Will Call because we hadn't gotten the tickets in the mail. Laura was worried she had maybe thrown them away by accident. Anyway, on the way to the ticket window, we passed through the PETA demonstration. Received a brochure. I shake my head writing this. I don't know of another group of protestors who I think is a bigger waste of time. They have nothing better to do. The next time a group of animals gathers together to protest their own "mistreatment," give me a shout. Until then, I hold onto the belief that animals don't think. They wouldn't be able to tell you whether they were living a dream life or a life of abuse. As to whether Ringling Bros. & Barnum and Bailey Circus is abusing animals.... I don't think so.

The main thing I took away from the event is that they certainly don't want any lawsuits. The title of the show was, "Zing Zang Zoom!" but the subtitle could be, "AKA, "Don't Try This at Home!" I heard, "Don't Try This at Home!" sung in a cute, harmonized, choreographed manner even more than I did, "Zing Zang Zoom!" I'm trying to imagine the circus back in the day, when my parents were kids. I don't think they would've had all the disclaimers worked into the show like we have it nowadays.

Two funny things happened when we got home. First, I got the mail. Our tickets for the circus were in an envelope. Yes, that's right. The circus we had just attended. Hopefully Ticketmaster is hiring a new mail coordinator as I type. Secondly, the kids were hot to trot and began performing their own circus in our living room. While they jumped off little chairs into a pile of pillows, pretending to be shot out of a cannon, Zoe sang at the top of her lungs: "Don't Try This at Hooooommmmeeee!" I tried to get her to see the irony, but she just gave me a blank stare. I love her innocence.

Ah, the circus. Memories aplenty.

Return

2010-02-09T22:03:00.006-05:00

Hello blogland....

It's been awhile (emphasis) since words were last typed on this forum. I'd blame a mixture of busyness, burn out, and a third go-round of Fatherhood on the blog-bernation (blog + hibernation, to borrow a trick from my blogging friend, Annie Downs). Speaking of a new baby, I need to reveal the newest Kirkland to those who haven't already heard......

Griffin Everett Kirkland (we're calling him "Finn")

He is surely the "easiest" baby we've had yet. He's very low-maintenance. After he eats in the middle of the night, very rarely do we (who am I kidding? Laura usually deals with him overnight. I try to pitch in sometimes, but I've got to give credit where it's due) have to do an hour-long routine of trying to get Finn back to sleep. He just does it. With three total children, this is a wonderful grace God has given. Finn is a blessing. He's super-cute (am I biased??) and reminds me of Zoe when she was a newborn.

It's been funny lately. Around the house, the kids are all "doing their thing." Zoe pretty much dresses up in nearly a dozen costumes on any given day, sings, dances, and puts on "shows." She also draws and makes crafts all the time. All. the. time. I love her little creations. Both the older kids know I'm a huge Thrashers fan, as I watch almost every game on TV (looking forward to actually attending a home game in the near future again). Henry LOVES to "play Thrashers." We have a little soccer/hockey mini-goal in our house and some plastic hockey sticks. Various balls/wooden toys compete for their chance to be the "puck" we use. If I'm home, Henry wants to play. When I walk in the door from work, Henry is quick to say, "Let's play Thrashers!!" We even throw down the sticks and get into "fights." It's hilarious. And I love it. Even though I do sometimes just need to go straight to the restroom and pee when I get home from work.

Laura's artwork and her creative output is still going strong. I'm amazed when I think of all the things she does.... Mom for 3 kids... creator of a multitude of products.... wife to me....... she is hard to believe. I'm so thankful for her. And have I ever said what a great cook she is?? Amazing! Lately, I often take a mental step back and observe what God has given me, with our growing family. It's almost too much to take in. Even with things being more hectic and busy, I find myself energized and tapping into a hidden well of strength to make it through the day. My family are my inspiration. That might even be a cheesy Hallmark quote. But, in this case, these words couldn't be more true.

Anyway, I intend to get back to semi-regular blogging. True, life is busy. There are so many things going on. However, to share a thought, an idea, or a recap of recent life events is quite an amazing treat. I don't want to miss the opportunity.

Al Franken, Senator

2009-07-04T14:30:00.002-04:00

Is it just me...

or is it too much of an irony that Al Franken - former comedian - is now a confirmed U.S. Senator? Surely, this must be a joke.

Sadly and surrealy, it is not. If it's a joke, I'm not laughing.

May our nation be kept as safe as possible from the monstrous damage that will come during, at least, the next 3.5 years. Franken must be singing praises to the gods of legal manipulation and truth distortion as I type.

Deja Vu, in part

2009-06-30T12:05:00.006-04:00

Laura's family had a terrifying experience early Sunday morning. At 4:35am, we got a phone call from a family friend in St. Simons' Island. It was about Laura's brother, Wes. He had been in an auto accident and, since it was very early in the proceedngs, we didn't know much information. We were told a very similar story to that of when Laura's sister, Rebekah, had been in a fatal accident 2 Summers prior. It was eerie.

Since Laura was on the phone getting information, my heart was beating in what seemed like my throat. I wanted to know what was happening and feared so badly that the unthinkable might be possible. Pacing around from bathroom to bedroom, I heard bits and pieces. Finally, I knew that it was serious and we had to get in touch with Laura's parents. Laura initially thought she might not be able to do it. Quickly, she dialed the number. She prepared her Dad and delivered the news. They were ready to leave the mountain cabin in Cherry Log almost immediately, even though they had just only arrived the evening before.

Now it's been 3 days since then. I sit here writing these words in a completely different environment than I would've been 2 years ago. Wes is alive. He has a journey toward complete recovery, but his injuries are all concentrated around his face. He's already speaking, comprehending, and adjusting (albeit groggily) to his post-accident surroundings and conditions. Laura was commenting on how "fascinating" it was to listen to what Wes said and what he was doing. She was almost giddy about it. I believe it's because this is the reality that was nonexistent when Rebekah was in an almost identical situation. This is what might have been, in her case, that Laura never got to experience. Most certainly, it's an arena of redemption and grace this time around. A collective, deep sigh of relief is palpable amongst everyone involved with her family and this community.

Ponderings

2009-06-20T00:24:00.001-04:00

Had some time to think. Here is the result:

Why do we chase and sprint after all these ghosts? You live a life full of intrigue and expectations that yield a rare sum of light. Beauty pulses all throughout, haunting the edges of days like the tick of a clock. Effort presses onward to finally grasp that thing – that one thing – which will finally bring resolution and bliss.

This is the losing battle. If anything, we discover ourselves to be easily fooled. Like hamsters on the treadmill, it’s a neverending emptying of the pockets to the dealer at the table. Yet, we try and try. It must be noble in the judgement of someone’s eyes, we hope.

Gorgeous sadness. Many have made fortunes mining the misery of our kind. They say if you can’t laugh at it, then you’d weep. The laughing may be a coping mechanism or just a method to stave off the brutal reality of our collective loss. The laughter is rich, however. Humor is a kind balm. The most honest is the dark variety. Here we marry the grim consequences of our actions to the wisdom gained from humble reflection. We can stare ourselves down in the mirror and smile. That’s a victory unto itself.

For all this mess we place ourselves in, how do we find a meaning to it? Almost as a gut instinct, we can flail in the pool of excuses and dish out accusations in all directions. No one is safe from these. The last target we would dare to put in our sights is our self. Claiming responsibility is a massive direct hit to the pride we all own.

If, in a lifetime, this level can be reached, there is truly hope. Tragically, we have a blind spot preventing us from achieving it, most of the time. If we treasure the perspective of an outsider, and step outside our own window view, the closer to freedom we would be.

Sometimes it's necessary

2009-04-16T21:18:00.003-04:00

My kids provided a simple, yet effective, example of an important principle tonight. As we were driving in the car, Zoe was yelling, "Silence!!" to her brother. I was correcting her and saying what a paradox it was for her to be screaming the word, "silence," when she was being anything but.

However.... what came to mind is that, sometimes, it's necessary for that type of action to be taken to bring about silence. It's similar to when people complain about war, in some instances. War is a necessary thing at times. When chaos is going on, sometimes you have to go through the means of war to bring about peace. Kind of like screaming "silence!"

I continue to learn tidbits from my kids.

Looking past the obvious

2009-04-12T09:22:00.003-04:00

I think this excerpt is a brilliant illustration:

"Let us begin with a parable. Imagine that a satellite phone is washed ashore on a remote island inhabited by a tribe that has never had contact with modern civilization. The natives play with the numbers on the dial pad and hear different voices upon hitting certain sequences. They assume first that it's the device that makes these noises. Some of the cleverer natives, the scientists of the tribe, assemble an exact replica and hit the numbers again. They hear the voices again. The conclusion seems obvious to them. This particular combination of crystals and metals and chemicals produces what seems like human voices, and this means that the voices are simply properties of the device. But the tribal sage summons the scientists for a discussion. He has thought long and hard on the matter and has reached the following conclusion: the voices are coming through the instrument must be coming from people like themselves, people who are living and conscious although speaking in another language. Instead of assuming that the voices are simply properties of the handset, they should investigate the possibility that through some mysterious communication network they are "in touch" with other humans. Perhaps further study along these lines could lead to a greater understanding of the world beyond their island. But the scientists simply laugh at the sage and say: 'Look, when we damage the instrument, the voices stop coming. So they're obviously nothing more than sounds produced by a unique combination of lithium and printed circuit boards and light-emitting diodes."

--- from There is a God: How the world's most notorious atheist changed his mind by Anthony Flew

Classic "Deep Thought"

2009-03-26T13:26:00.001-04:00

“Probably the saddest thing you'll ever see is a mosquito sucking on a mummy. Forget it, little friend.”

- Jack Handey, from Saturday Night Live

Irony Alert.

2009-03-21T18:25:00.002-04:00

Today, this unfortunate kid came in the door and asked for an application.

You may be (ARE) thinking: what's so funny here?

The whole situation ties together once you know what his T-shirt said:

"Genius by Birth / Slacker by Choice"

Hmmmm....

You've GOT to be kidding

2009-03-20T19:04:00.000-04:00

Seriously?!? No. Really?

Read it and weep.

"Ironic" by Alanis Morrissette

2009-03-18T16:59:00.001-04:00

This quote from comedian Ed Byrne is right on the money about this song:

"The only ironic thing about that song is it's called ironic and it's written by a woman who doesn't know what irony is. That's quite ironic."

Promising Signs of a Developing Sense of Humor

2009-03-16T22:24:00.002-04:00

My kids love this character, Katie, from the movie (she's NOT in the book!), "Horton Hears a Who!" She is such a bizarre addition to this movie, which is already a bit off-kilter since it's from the mind of Dr. Seuss. The scene pictured above makes them crack up, especially Zoe, who can imitate her to a T.

I love it because the humor is weird. It makes me have hope in my little chillun. They will surely go far.

Watch this to get the full effect.

"Ministry of Information": A Larger-Than-Life Government

2009-03-14T11:32:00.002-04:00

Is our government becoming something akin to this? This movie, "Brazil", is an excellent (and yes, highly surreal - this is a Terry Gilliam film, after all) glimpse into a future that is all too near. Although it leans heavily on themes from George Orwell's prophetic "1984," the story still has its own voice. There are many more scenes similar to this one, but I love the over-the-top satire of what excessive government work looks like. If you get a chance to see this movie, I believe you'll enjoy it. It is difficult to figure out, at times, but that's what makes it awesome; you have to decipher and put some "work" into viewing it to make ends meet. Not an easily digestible piece of art, but well worth it. The set design and camerawork are astounding.

Obama NickJr PSA

2009-03-09T23:13:00.001-04:00

OK - try to imagine if there was something akin to this made about President Bush. Having a difficult time? That right. Because it would be something that would NEVER HAPPEN. This is hilarious, in the sense that it makes you laugh at the absurdity and cry at how our children are being indoctrinated.

Wait a minute..... wait a minute. It's not really biased. Especially the part that says, "...and he writes WONDERFUL speeches!"

My face is frozen in a stunned position.

Discovery

2009-02-26T15:14:00.003-05:00

Last night, I had a minor epiphany. I went to a local business establishment and ended up talking with the employee at the check-out counter for about 5 minutes. When I had gone to this place before, I remember noticing this guy and kind of laughing to myself. He looked like something out of the early 80's, in terms of what he wore and how his hair was styled. I even remember laughing with my Father-in-law about this same guy as we left this place a few weeks ago.

It's funny, but I realized that stereotypes are the language of an outsider. True, there are reasons for stereotypes. Mainly, that they contain some degree of truth about their subject. But, they paint in broad strokes and are a vague impression of said subject. By no means do they take into account the individual.

As I was driving home, I thought about how nice this guy was. I thought about our discussions involving having children and being a Dad. I thought about how he's working 2 jobs to make ends meet. I also appreciated how truly inquisitive he was about my job and my life after graduating from UGA, among other things. We actually had some similarities.

I saw him in a new light because I had begun to get to know him. It was a simple thing, but profound. I think if we all knew people better, it would go a long way toward increasing our understanding and empathy. Of course, you can't know everyone on that level. Simply being aware that there's "more than meets the eye" is a powerful reminder that everyone's life is a novel - full of detail and unique experiences. That being said, we're all more similar than we imagine.

Good Point

2009-02-12T14:07:00.002-05:00

This is a hypothetical question posed to Pres. Obama. It contains some surprising figures, comparing the economy in the 80's to our current one. Interesting points by Larry Elder.

"Mr. President, this is a two-part question. In your opening statement, you called today's economic situation "the most profound economic emergency since the Great Depression" and later "the worst economic crisis since the Great Depression." But in the 1981-82 recession, unemployment reached 10.8 percent in 1982 versus 7.6 today. Reagan inherited an annual inflation rate of 13.5 percent, while you, sir, came in with a 0.1 percent inflation rate. Prime interest rates reached 21.5 percent at the end of 1980, compared with 3.25 percent at the end of 2008. Reagan did not ask for a "rescue" or "bailout" package. He cut taxes and slowed the rate of domestic spending. Unemployment, inflation and interest rates went down. The Treasury collected more revenue than ever. First, how then -- at least so far -- is this the greatest economic crisis since the Great Depression? And second, given Reagan's success, why not cut taxes, reduce domestic spending, and leave taxpayers and consumers with more money to save, spend and invest?"

The Old Gipper was a wise one. Here is the link to the full article this question originated from. Here's one more bonus quote from Ronnie:

"Government's view of the economy could be summed up in a few short phrases: If it moves, tax it. If it keeps moving, regulate it. And if it stops moving, subsidize it." - Ronald Reagan

Sweet Words

2009-02-10T22:10:00.002-05:00

I've noticed, since the first time Obama came on the scene, how everyone is so amazed at his eloquence. His way with words. I admit, he is a polished speaker, no doubt about it. If that is all he is, though, we might as well have elected a trained actor or a poet. If someone is applauded merely for their ability to speak words in an artful way, is that enough?

There could be a man on the corner of the city sidewalk, who plays with words like an artist. He could also be mentally deranged. But, hey, his words sound great!

The point I'm making is that wordplay, alone, is a cheap prize. Something else to be treasured, but rarely is these days, is wisdom. Is Barack Obama a wise man? That's where I'm not sure.

He is the product and darling of the university system. Where our universities were once institutions of deep learning, nowadays, they are a far cry from those past places. Now, we have loads of professors who are learned and intelligent people, no doubt, but aren't necessarily wise. Some are, I'm sure. The vast majority, though, are persons whose minds are full of knowledge. Is knowledge enough? Obama has plenty of knowledge, I would imagine.

Ultimately, our world is caving in on itself and the emptiness of our own vanity. We love to appear smart. We love to appear beautiful. Do we love wisdom? I don't see our government being guided by wisdom. The stimulus package just passed in the Senate looks eerily similar, in concept, to Roosevelt's "New Deal." We're still haunted by some of these New Deal systems: social security, Fannie Mae. Are they still causing trouble today? Yes. Just look at the role Fannie Mae played in the recent housing debacle.

Some verses from 2 Timothy come to mind:

"For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths." 2 Timothy 4:3&4

This brings to mind all kinds of things - from talk shows, to infomercials, to educators, to government leaders.

Who is truly wise in this day and age?

FaceBook In Reality

2009-02-07T23:29:00.001-05:00

This is truly funny. So awkward!

Enemy Territory for News?

2009-01-24T17:39:00.003-05:00

Anyone else find it funny that the headquarters for both Fox News and CNN are located in areas that (generally) are opposite the political persuasion of each station? You'd think someone would suggest a location swap.

Maybe it's good for them, in some way. The antagonism might serve as a fuel, of sorts.

New Musics!

2009-01-22T23:42:00.002-05:00

First, U2 is back on the move. Their new album is on the horizon (oh. that was horrible.. he he). Here is the first single:

Get On Your Boots

This new Coldplay video is quite clever, I think. Puppets - ha!

Life in Technicolor ii

Change has come, indeed

2009-01-21T13:33:00.004-05:00

Well, here we are - officially into the Obama administration. It's funny, but there's been a complete and utter turn-around in the general media's attitude. On everything and everywhere you hear the message of "Let's work TOGETHER!" and "We are one." Where was this feeling for the last 8 years? So, now we're supposed to be one, big family? Obama IS magic!

This article by David Limbaugh (note to those who hate Rush: this is NOT *that* Limbaugh) says it better than I can. My above-written paragraph is just a synopsis of one of his points.

I do acknowledge the historical implications and importance of Obama being President. Of course. But, I'm appalled (not surprised, though) at how the media has turned on a dime and changed it's tune. It's all very, very subjective.

Penn Says: A Gift of a Bible

2008-12-18T22:22:00.001-05:00

This is interesting. An impact was made on this entertainer, Penn (who is an atheist), by someone simply being kind and bold. The way he words his response is very thoughtful and intriguing.

Mute Math - Reset

2008-12-10T19:36:00.001-05:00

Brad W. had posted a music video awhile back (the awesomeness known as "Sabotage").

I post this live clip of MuteMath, not only to let people know about them who might not have seen them before, but in anticipation of a new album from them. Should be out soon. This whole band are amazing musicians. The drummer is phenomenal. The interplay between the bass guitar and the drums is fantastic. Fans of rhythm will appreciate this.

The Comfort of...Jeans

2008-12-07T16:15:00.003-05:00

I saw this commercial the other day. Got me to thinking more about it than I probably should. It had Brett Favre, quarterback extraordinaire, talking about his Wrangler jeans. He spoke about how his dog gives him comfort, and how his jeans do, too. I suppose the guy is unmarried, so his dog is his best friend, I guess? Anyway, it made me think about modern advertising.

So many families are splintered apart. Many individuals experience isolation and a lack of community. While I highly doubt that anyone takes the comfort of blue jeans past a fleeting thought, it's funny the way a company will hire a celebrity to pimp their product with steep claims of satisfaction. Who knows if Mr. Favre is a lonely person in his personal life (heck, he's got his dog), but we all know now that his jeans give him comfort. Even if it is subliminal, someone out there in the world who sees this commercial and is feeling incomplete in some way or another might take to the streets in search of the Wrangler jeans. I know it's silly and ridiculous, but I think this is the power of advertising.

Wrangler paid loads of money to purchase the power of Favre's fame. Favre says these clothes give him comfort. They're trying to sell a product to make money; he's making money from his reputation and talent on the football field. Wrangler has a vested interest in the public's response to Brett Favre and they're betting that you want comfort. To compound the situation with irony, who knows if Favre even wore Wranglers before this commercial contract? I'm sure he has an endless supply now, but does he really find comfort in his jeans?

Some might be laughing or pounding their head on the wall. "Why are you bemoaning this stupid jeans commercial," you might ask. It's because when I listen to what's pounded into us, day in and day out, I find it astounding. Would anyone from the previous century have thought their pants give them comfort?? The pants might've been awful back then, for all I know. Past a strictly functional appreciation of the clothing, would anyone think twice about it? I doubt it. But here we are, all evolved on the brink of 2009, listening to someone who we recognize but don't personally know, talk about how his jeans and dog are a source of comfort for him. How far we've come.

I'm thankful for my family. I'm thankful for a relationship with God. And I'm thinking I might enjoy some century-old pair of pants that's really scratchy and terrible. At least I wouldn't bank my hopes for joy on them.

Saving the World

2008-12-01T23:12:00.002-05:00

I work for a company that's "green." If you're not familiar, that means we're ecologically aware. We try to encourage recycling whenever possible to reduce our carbon footprint. Again, to some a familiar term.... to others, total gibberish.

This being said, I began to really think about this today at work. I'm all for doing our part to reduce waste and keep things clean. However, when you go deeper into this subject, people typically split into two factions. One group typically believes that recycling isn't super-important. They're either supportive of it, but not passionate (that's where I live) or they're totally opposed to it and think it's a waste of time. The other group is strongly supportive, to the point to being dogmatic and even religious about it.

There's two ideologies at work, I believe, that form the basis for these two group's attitudes towards recycling. One mode of thought involves the belief that we're not fully responsible for the ultimate destiny of the earth. The other set of beliefs holds that it is our full and sovereign duty to uphold the earth...or else. While I'm all for doing what we can to save paper, reduce waste, re-use materials, I'm not going to obsess over it and spend all my time and energy to make sure I do that. I'll do it when I can and work to change my habits, but I don't feel dread that, if I don't save everything, the earth will perish. I believe the earth is on a timetable that God is in control of and ultimately, that God will redeem this earth. Do I trash it in the meantime? No. But, I don't feel the weight of the impossible task of trying to sustain the earth.

The second set of beliefs - the ones supporting the belief that we are fully responsible for the sustainability of the earth - doesn't hold to the worldview of a God who's in control, at least as far as I can figure or conclude. If so, why would there be such a push to "save the world," as if we had the ability to even do that? I don't agree with a humanist POV, which imagines it possible that we are not only responsible for saving the planet, but that we are even capable of that feat. Even if every human alive were to be on the same team, in one accord of effort, I don't think we could sustain life or all the resources indefinitely. I don't believe it was meant to be around, in its current state, forever.

What are your thoughts on this issue?

Trustworthy History

2008-11-15T23:31:00.004-05:00

Moving past any sort of political post it seems.......

Was thinking today about history and memories. How things are told. When someone writes a history of something, or even if they write an autobiography, how trusted can that story be? We tend to gloss things over and only "remember" things that are more than likely better than they really were. So, things are subjectively related. How does that make you feel about your own stories? How does it make you feel about what you'd read in school? Or something you're reading now?

We usually make things more dramatic than they truly were, too. "Fish stories," if you will. What do we really know about things in the past? Do we think we're that much different than those who came before us? Maybe not. We all experience the same minutiae, the same seemingly pointless things that don't "mean" anything grand and profound. Those who grew up in generations past were human, just like we are now. They went through the same things we do now, outside of the historical and chronological differences which are unavoidable.

For some reason, I know I find myself somehow imagining that "those people" were so different from myself. Their style, the look on their faces - just don't seem to fit the modern world I inhabit. But something inside me knows this can't be true. I know I came from the same places they came from. I know they went through some of the same struggles I go through now. I know this because we're both participants in the human condition.

Some of the details could be more advantageous to creating a better story, so I can't always trust if something happened just the way it's related. But - I can trust that in the humdrum of normal affairs, that guy from 200 years ago was trying to figure out life the same way I am today.

What Worries Me

2008-11-05T16:47:00.003-05:00

OK, it's been awhile since any posts. I was inching towards political "out-of-controlness."

Now that the election's behind us, it's time to look ahead. Obama is in. Our next President and Commander-in-Chief. A good friend, Justin B, had written a wise statement (not sure if he had the original thought, but regardless, it's truth) about B.O. He said that if B.O. had tried to join the FBI, he would've been rejected based on his past associations. Well - now he's leader of the free world.

I got to thinking about the next 4 years. Here's what is worrisome. Because a large majority of the reason for Barack's victory is found in the so-called "youth vote," you can examine some of "youth's" negative tendencies and characteristics. Youth tends to be idealistic and sometimes arrogant (ignorantly casting a blind eye to wisdom). I sense that, because most of the youth will feel this is "their" President, anything said about Barack appearing to be critical will be defended out of pride. Not wanting to own up to any failure (surely this will be inevitable on some situations in the next 4 years, seeing as Obama is green as they come), they will fight, tooth and nail, to justify all of B.O.'s actions and decisions. It will become tied up in their own self-worth. You can bet on this.

The other thing, that has been cited before by many others, is the "racism card." I'm joining the chorus and agreeing that many, many viable disagreements will be written off as "racist." If you disagree or are critical of B.O., you are tagged "racist." Count on this happening. However, if Obama is to get any kind of respect, he will have to call this down and ask for some degree of rationality in judging people's critical eye. Unless he is off-the-charts arrogant (and I believe he's got the intelligence and discernment to realize it), he will do this early on in his administration to get it cleared off the table and dealt with. If he does not address it, I worry for a "bullet-proof" administration that will not accept any criticism and accept only the one-sided praise of its partisan base. That would truly be the "lone ranger" mentality that Bush has been accused of for the past several years.

I do trust that God is in ultimate control and authority. We survived Jimmy Carter and Bill Clinton. As another friend pointed out, we might do good to settle down and be patient; it takes a Carter to get a Reagan.

Obama National Anthem

2008-10-16T17:44:00.001-04:00

This is great.

Good One

2008-10-16T12:20:00.004-04:00

and this one:

These come from this website:
www.thepeoplescube.com

Hilarious site.

Style vs. Substance

2008-10-15T22:50:00.002-04:00

Here's the bottom line:

When our country elects an individual to govern our nation, what criteria does one consider?

From some of the feedback I hear after these debates, you'd think that because B. Obama is such an "eloquent" and "smooth" talker, he is the best choice.

Let me say one thing: style is not what's introduced into bills and charisma is not the stuff that decisions are made of.

Whatever substance a candidate has, that is what will factor into how they run a country.

Big Smiles Biden and Land O' Lakes Obama may make for impressive fashion designers, if style is your thing, but I'm thinking issues, policy, judgement, and character are more of an important matter when the direction of a country is at stake.

Vacuum Ripe for Filling

2008-10-05T22:43:00.002-04:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54tjbgJmLFg
(please copy and paste this link to watch the video listed above. while I don't totally buy into conspiracy theories, I had trouble embedding the video from YouTube, even though I followed all the normal steps to post a video to a blog. Who at YouTube doesn't want me posting this video?)

Disclaimer: I am not proposing or saying that Obama is the anti-Christ. I don't have the capacity or authority to do so. However, I am alarmed at the atmosphere I see around me today. With wars being fought in many nations, with our economy close to ruins, with many families and marriages facing the breaking point, people are in a desperate place. One of the side effects of this situation is the vacuum created for someone to come along and be the focus of people's hope. A sort of savior, if you will. What's seen in this video is one example of the type of false hope I'm referring to. There are other videos of a similar nature, showing a level of faith unfathomable for a mere human to live up to. Obama has an impossible mantle placed on his shoulders by the expectations of so many people.

While this atmosphere is scary and even downright creepy, I see it as an opportunity for people to seek and find a true answer to their troubles. In this time, people looking for hope and someone to worship can look past the confines of our earthly realm and see into eternity. Jesus is the only One worthy of praise and the only One who can bring hope, happiness, and freedom.

Palin - Great Job

2008-10-02T22:54:00.001-04:00

I thought Sarah Palin held her own (and how!) tonight in the debate.

She did an awesome job and I really enjoyed how thoughtful, at ease, playful, and knowledgeable she was.

Bravo!

True Colors

2008-09-26T12:18:00.004-04:00

This is such an excellent picture to decipher and analyze.

Way to jump to conclusions, guys!
Since we can look back at this and weigh everyone's actions, we discover some telling things. One thing is that John McCain will not avoid the debate, as he's currently on his way to Mississippi now. In fact, there was never any indication that he was "afraid" of meeting Obama at the debate table. He said many times that he wished the two would meet in townhall settings to debate the issues, together, in public.

Another thing we now see is that whoever created this picture (substituting "Bailin" for "Palin" is somewhat clever, admittedly) looks like the fool. Not only are they dressed in a costume so they can't be seen, but they're also displaying the very classy hand gesture for all time. These are the kind of people whose character I admire. Don't you?

John McCain has proved this pre-emptive strike to be false by his actions. Killing two birds with one stone, he showed he was interested in getting things done by being an active part of the solution in Washington AND he will make it to the debate. He led this while Obama was made to follow. Unfortunately for the Leftie creator of this picture, they will have a hard time recovering from the impression they made of being nothing more than a crude slinger of false accusations.

Good Reading on Historical Matters?

2008-08-26T01:45:00.000-04:00

Watching all the current political TV has got me thinking.... and reading. Was just online reading through pages and pages of forum discussions (one I found was on a "physics forum" of all places) about why Bush is so hated these days. The thread got off-topic, like I would assume it would, into all kinds of history of the US involvement in the Mid-East, plus our Cold War with the Soviets. Very fascinating, but one thing that was hilarious is how many people are just spouting stuff that's more opinion and obviously just regurgitated from talk shows, talk radio, etc.

What I'd like to know is if anyone has some good reading about these issues? I'd like intelligent writing, dealing with the subjects listed above, but also about how God is woven through all of it, i.e. how are these world events occurring, from God's perspective? Something that has some Scripture to back it up. There might not be much out there that fits this description. IF there is, please let me know what you know! If I can read up some more, and balance this with prayer and seeing God's heart on the world at large, I could find some revelation, hopefully. In fact, Revelations might be a good book to start in..... but it's a tricky book, in many ways.

Travis : Something Anything

2008-08-17T22:41:00.001-04:00

From one of my favorite groups..... this is super catchy and ultra melodic like all their stuff.

Gotta love some Travis (plus, they're Scottish!) ---

Flesh & Blood

2008-08-10T16:45:00.002-04:00

You know how someone can get under your skin and it can drive you crazy, to the point of near obsession? Maybe it's a co-worker or a relative. Maybe it's a classmate from back in the day; you still might have a grudge. The point is, we can become angry (with good reason, many times) and focus on this person. It can eat you up, as you mentally pour over all the little details and what exactly you don't like about the person.

If, in fact, we are right and just in our anger against said person, what should we do? I believe the answer comes from Ephesians 6:12. "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." So many times, we focus on this person and see their face in our mind's eye when our anger rises. We hold them personally accountable and hate can take root in our spirit.

If I ask myself what Jesus would do, I think he would look past the obvious and shallow first layers that our reactions usually lead us to. Jesus fully engaged the spiritual realm when He walked this earth. He looked into that realm and spoke to the active parties. One thing I can learn from this is to ask the Lord for wisdom and to pray into what's really happening. In my earthly "wisdom" I can perceive lots of motives and become very angry at the person. However, with the extra firepower of God's Spirit, I'm more inclined to know the heart of the matter. More importantly, I could begin praying for the person instead of cursing them in my anger.

Now the question arises: can you always hold the "spiritual realm" fully accountable for a person's actions? When does the person take some sort of responsibility for their actions and attitudes? This is where I'm not sure. I don't know how to discern when a person is responsible for their own actions versus when to target the "spiritual forces of evil" that might be acting through that individual. For me, this is when I lean on prayer and God's wisdom.

This makes me think, though. When we engage in warfare of the physical, like what's happening now in the Middle East, we are not shooting ammunition of prayer at our enemies. It's bullets that infilct the mortal wound. How do I reconcile this to our struggle not being against the flesh and blood we're killing? Sometimes this is necessary, I suppose.

When I ask for the heart of Jesus in a situation, I believe He sees the person's heart I'm having trouble with. I believe He sees this person from the day they were a baby until the present time. Take the darkest example of our time: Hitler. God created this guy. God loves Hitler, the person, devoid of all the evil actions he inspired and carried out. God saw little boy Hitler, playing in a field. God saw the young man, Hitler, who wanted to be an artist and get into art school. (an aside: I really think the person on the board of that art school where Hitler was denied access had a huge amount of regret. Who knows what the world would've been like if the only mention we heard of Adolf Hitler was a brief news clip of some fringe artist whose work sold for a moderate amount at a New York auction?). God sees the heart. This leads me to believe I should always pray for the salvation of a person and ask for God's mercy on their life, regardless of my own anger towards the actions of that person.

Because God sees the heart and because each person is, in the end, accountable for the sum total of their life's choices, there is a judgement on each person. So, even though we can look to the spiritual realm and battle in spiritual warfare, we can't place all blame on said spiritual realm, leaving the person totally innocent. "The devil made me do it," doesn't get a pass here. At some point, the person is responsible. This is tough, though, because the person might go their whole life and be blind to the fact that they were steered and prodded by an unseen realm. Kind of like the Matrix, when Morpheus is revealing to Neo what's really happening beneath the surface.

I don't know all these things. I can only lean on the Spirit of God to give me His heart for people. Let God be the judge of the secrets of men's hearts and agendas.

Punching in the dark while being mad at the wrong guy

2008-08-06T22:27:00.004-04:00

Now, if that's not a title for a blog entry, I don't know what is.

Was thinking about how people, in general, react to God. God gets alot of blame. I mean, ALOT. He's blamed for not doing anything to save our world when things are so bad, He's blamed for not existing (is that even possible?), He's blamed for being too much of a control freak. There appears to be so much contradiction in all these accusations.

What I find most curious is how people blame God for the state of the world. "It's so bad. There's evil everywhere. Why doesn't God DO anything??" We have free will, people. Secondly, people blame God and Christianity for being so "rule-oriented" and don't like how they'd have to conform to someone else's standards. Hell, who am I kidding? I don't like it either. We're human - we revolt against being under anyone's thumb. Plus, I just said "hell" in a post about "religion." Now I'm freaking out because of my legalistic upbringing.

People (myself included at different points in my life) just have a problem with God, period. They want someone who will just step in a fix things. Well, God has ordained us with free will and humanness. We are apt to do evil things and have wild mood swings. That's who we are. So, God has decided not to run the earth with a totalitarian choke hold. I respect that. People, in general, also don't like it when God sets standards and rules that are, in the long view, for our own good. He designed us and knows us better than we do. Our independent nature revolts against that. We want it both ways.

When the crap hits the fan and life gets messy, we find ourselves being "mad at God." Why does God make this happen? Why has God done this? We need to break down the situation a little more. Much (notice I didn't say "all" - "much" is what was said) happens due to our own choices and the fallout from it all. We bear the weight of our own consequences. When bad things happen to us that are in no relation to our control, we become victims of evil. We are touched by darkness. LIke many have heard before, this is the devil's greatest victory (I believe C.S. Lewis said that): No one thinks he exists. By default, God gets the brunt of the blame.

We find ourselves punching in the dark while being mad at the wrong guy. We're frustrated and angry at God. In reality, God is our hope in these situations. We live in a world where bad things happen to us, either from our own hand or from the hand of another. God is our friend, reaching out a hand to us, looking to step in when invited. Sadly, we easily fall into the trap of turning our backs and eating the bitter pill of stubborn independence.

I'm an Uncle

2008-08-04T23:28:00.005-04:00

Well, well.... finally, the day has arrived. I am now an Uncle.
Even more importantly, my younger brother, Clay and his wife, Deborah, have become parents.

They have experienced not only the miracle of childbirth but a miracle of life, in general. I won't go into any more detail than to say that Clay and Deborah weren't given a high chance of having children. God apparently has different opinions than doctors, in this situation. To say that God has proved Himself the keyholder in their circumstance is an understatement. He has opened a door only He has the power to open. It's amazing to see God prove Himself and to bless the life of my brother and sister-in-law.

Little Daniel Fields Kirkland was born Saturday, August 2nd, at 4:21 in the p.m. From first glance at his eyes, he looks like my bro. I'll see him in person tomorrow, so I can give more accurate feedback then. But, the eyes say Clay. I've heard that the mouth and nose look like Deborah. Now, I won't go into facial feature debates here on the blog, but I have to say the kid is
cute.

I am so happy and excited for Clay and Deborah. I've got a wonderful (nearly) 4 years of fatherhood under my belt and it's taught me so much. I have different perspectives, values, and feelings that were never present pre-baby. Your emotional spectrum takes a huge leap and you learn to love someone like you never have before. Your own child. You get a more accurate and immediate glimpse into the heart of God the Father than previously possible. It truly rocks your world.

It will be fun to see Clay and Deborah experience this firsthand. It will be so much fun to have our families experience life together as we continue to expand and grow in years to come. God is good.

New Home

2008-07-31T00:46:00.005-04:00

OK. We bought a house. So... we've been busy. That's my official excuse on why there's been no new posts in nearly 2 months.

It's great to be homeowners once again. We're in the process of settling in and still moving the last few loads of possessions (there's always more, it seems). Getting used to where things are in a new location. Meeting new neighbors. All that fun stuff.

I post a picture of Henry in front of the new place. Grass is still uncut and out-of-control in this one! I just cut it today, thank you.

Anyway, just wanted to post an update. Look forward to reconnecting with all the blogosphere once things settle down.

Night to Remember

2008-06-09T00:04:00.002-04:00

Last night, we went out with some friends of ours from the small group at our church. Being Korean, they treated us to an experience like no other.

First we traveled to Duluth, which is home to "Koreatown." Check out Wikipedia's page about Koreatowns in the US. Atlanta is smokin!
We ate at this incredible restaurant. Honey Pig. Bam!

Lastly, we travelled down the road to enjoy some Korean Karaoke at DoReMi Karaoke Bar.

There is nothing more to say.

If I had the extra time/ Dream College

2008-05-14T11:07:00.002-04:00

Was thinking today about how, if I had the extra time, I would love to invest time in a couple of subjects. I would enjoy reading/studying some various eras in history, particularly Russian and Asian (Japanese, Chinese, etc) history. For some reason, everytime I'm at the bookstore (which, by the way, I'm about to visit with Henry on my day off...), I find myself wanting to read some biography of an emperor or dictator. Not that I'm aspiring to mimic one of these typically ruthless men, I'm just curious to know the origins and backgrounds of these countries. I do read into these things, but it's usually when I'm on vacation. Even then, I only get through about 1/3 of the book. It's the effort that counts, right?

I also am currently interested, again, in Economics. In high school, I became intensely fascinated with finances after playing the Stock Market Game in 10th grade Econ class. It was awesome. Not that we "won" big on Wall Street on anything, but the whole process and gigantic mechanism of "the Market" blew me away. Recently, I invested a fairly small amount of money in some ETF's using ING's ShareBuilder website. It's fun to check on the ticker symbols throughout the day to see how it's performing. Somehow, I see myself checking out the Financial magazines and books at the bookstore this time around.

Anyway, what are some of your favorite hobbies and/or areas of interest? Something you'd love to do more of, if time allowed?

Thoughts about kids

2008-04-13T22:11:00.003-04:00

I'm amazed at the range of emotions you can go through in a day with your kids.

On a Sunday, I have the kids for at least half the day before Laura is back on the team (b/c she's working at the church). However, today, I had them from rise 'n' shine until 6 pm. Laura went to a shower for our sister-in-law, Deborah, directly after church.

From the get-go, I really wanted to sleep later than 7am. This was not to be. Henry was raring to go. As he rolled around the bed (he and I shared the bed), fussing to get out, Zoe woke up around 7:15 and came to join us. When she got into the bed, Henry was fully ready to jet. Zoe was kind of into the sleeping-later thing, with her head on the pillow, but Henry wouldn't have it. He whined/cried/fidgeted until he fell right off the bed. Fortunately, there was a pillow underneath him as he floated down the side of the dresser and met the floor.

He cried and it was really only because of being scared of falling. He wasn't injured. So, we all got up at that point. My adrenaline was pumping.

After getting the bottle of formula going for Henry and preparing Zoe's bagel (untoasted, with cream cheese, and "closed" --- both halves together, like a sandwich), I set about grinding/brewing the coffee and making some cheese eggs. I got darn close to hitting the magic mix of cheese and eggs that Waffle House does. Henry and I have shared this plate of breakfast glory a couple times before.... I see the tradition forming. He could've eaten more, if I had made more.

Anyway... the day went on..... after returning from church, we went into play mode. Henry slept for awhile. I so wanted nap-time to visit us simultaneously, but Zoe didn't give in. We watched "Lady and the Tramp" --- again. I then found Zoe's closed bagel from the morning time...... on the floor, slightly pressed into the carpet. Oy. She began her routine of changing clothes countless times in one day. I watched her dance and clapped. I got Henry out of the bed and changed his diaper. I made him lunch ..... and picked up the destruction that laid beneath his chair afterwards. I let Zoe watch some gymnastics that were on TV. She then started jumping on beds and couches. I had to watch and she wanted me to clap, but I was torn between thinking how cute she was and how bad it was for her to jump on the furniture. I finally had to put the discipline foot down because Henry was wanting to copy her.

Throughout the rest of the afternoon before Laura's return, I picked up toys several times.... I told Zoe about how I was picking up her "costumes" for her and that I was doing her work for her.... but she didn't really take too well to that. I went through the rollercoaster of feelings: frustration, wanting to just take a Sunday afternoon nap, almost crying because you realize how amazing children are and what hilarious, cute little people they are, getting angry because the kids won't mind, realizing how many things could possibly go wrong in a day but don't thanks to the grace of God, doing so much cleaning that is basically running in circles because you never catch up.

Several things:

- I highly respect any Mom (or any parent) that keeps kids during the day. It's alot of work.
- Does God feel this way about us??
- Children are a blessing. They are amazing. My heart bursts with love for our kids.

OK, that was alot of blog right there. Maybe it was like a dam bursting because I haven't blogged in about a month's time. I hope to get back on a more frequent schedule. Work has kept me captive.

Peace to all the blogosphere.

Opposite Way

2008-03-16T21:47:00.002-04:00

I'm fully obsessed right now with a song by the group, Leeland. It's called, "Opposite Way." It's pretty direct in lyrics, but the beauty is in the simplicity. Musically, it's my favorite sort: somewhat melancholy, with passionate, yearning vocals...intense, slightly distorted guitar...piano underpinning the whole arrangement...propulsive percussion...a pace that builds to a cathartic release at the end. By the end, you want to jump out of your seat or your skin or whatever and just praise Jesus.

The song's theme has been creeping up everywhere lately. This, I have no doubt, means that God is really trying to be clear with me. He's leading me to carve out a lifestyle that is the "opposite way" of the world's frenetic pace. Not that it's all about a speed issue, but it's more of a values thing. And I don't mean a political "family values" thing, either. It's keeping first the kingdom of God before all else.

Before work.

Before music.

Before dreams.

Before busy-ness.

Before all the other things that push and shove and try to wrangle a place in line for my attentions and affections.

While the world is rushing about trying to obtain things that only temporarily salve the universal emptiness we all experience without Christ, God is calling to me today to begin making life changes. He's asking me to change everything. He knows I cannot in any way do this in my own weak, human effort. So, He's asking me, in effect, to ask Him for all I need. God knows that I am complete in Jesus. He will add all the necessary "stuff" I have to have on this earth, effortlessly. I needn't fear that.

So, although I'm not in any way close to that destination, I am hearing His voice and walking in that direction. One step at a time. My heart and mind are being transformed to hunger and seek to know God.

I've been in a slumber too long and the season is now. Thanks to a young band named Leeland for being the messenger.

10 Random Things.

2008-02-21T21:42:00.004-05:00

Tagged by Bill P.

Here goes:

1) I'm a clean freak. Wash my hands all the time and I love to clean. Bathrooms (showers, toilets), sinks. Vacuuming, too.

2) At some point in elementary school, I started "drumming" by clicking my teeth. When I would be hearing a song playing or just humming one in my head, I had an elaborate system of pressures and lengths I would hold the "click" to make a drum sound. It probably looks weird to others. It sounds amazing to my inner ear. I might say this contributed to my need for orthodontic helps.

3) My first computer was a Commodore 64. "Karataka" was our first game.

4) The first concert I went to was with FUMC youth group. It was Amy Grant at the Omni. The Omni has since been imploded and Amy Grant has....not.

5) My nickname as a youngster was "Moses." A swim teacher kept having to call me to jump in and get with the group because I was "moseying" along. I think I was daydreaming.

6) I used to stutter (it was more like hesitant speech; I would start the sound of a word and couldn't finish. Had to do with breathing) as a kid. This, too, was a good reason for the "Moses" nickname.

7) I was once so jealous of our babysitter playing with my brother and not playing with me that I broke the panel of a window. We had one of the "behind-your-real-house" barns as a kid. I was swinging one of those hollow plastic baseball bats (ones with a fat end). The more upset I got, the harder I hit the glass on the barn window. It broke. My Dad said I'd have to pay for the damages with my allowance, but it never went that far.

8) I once tried to invite Cameron Diaz to our employee Christmas party when I worked at the hotel in NYC. I was quite intoxicated (just being honest, folks). I knew she was staying in the joint and I knew which room. I knocked on the door several times, but no answer. Thank the Lord she wasn't there.

9) When I was a kid, I called into the radio show of a local Christian station. I dedicated a song to my grandmother. I won the contest. I was able to go to the bookstore and pick out an album (that's right, kiddies... an LP). My choice: Mylon LeFevre and Broken Heart. I think it was the "Sheep in Wolves' Clothing" one.

10) A pet peeve of mine is when someone uses the microwave, but doesn't use the full amount of time they programmed in. Then, when I glance at the microwave's screen to see what time it is, I get freaked for a half-second when I'm guessing it's about 7pm and the screen reads: ":23" I hate that.

I really could go on. But that, dear readers, is enough information.

New Poem

2008-02-10T00:05:00.000-05:00

The Orbital Journey of the Heart
2.9.2008

Begin
small beats that feel the distance
can’t fathom your history
nightmare you put behind

angry outbursts punctuate
the grey, unsettled sky of your spirit
tension always underneath the surface
realization stings that you won’t be easy

slight crack in the wall
on a night drive home
marks the start of my compassion

hurt and hate
molten throughout years
to form my stubborn core
Now it lessens

push and pull
in grown-up years
relationship grows richer
maturity reveals insight

foolish phantoms of assumption
exiled forever
your healing becoming stronger

Travel forward in my mind
to your end
Imagine me standing at your funeral
clapping for you

I see you as a survivor
I applaud you for your courage
I watched the Hand of grace in your life
I am on your side.

We are in a new house (kind of)

2008-02-03T22:41:00.000-05:00

So...... in response to some feedback about my not posting or commenting much lately (I mean...come on!! Last one was Monday, 1/28!)..... I will tell you what's been going on. We moved from our previous abode (renting it, I might add) in Lee's Crossing to my grandparent's old house on Hope St. My grandmother still owns it, technically, but my Dad is the estate comptroller (just wanted to use that sweet-a** word). So, we're renting this bad boy.

It's hilarious to be living in the house you used to visit often as a kid. It's this same layout that's buried in my memories, but now it's got Laura's famous decorative touch and our kids are running around in it. Surreal can't even begin to touch what I'm getting at. The weirdest things are:

- the pantry in the dining room still has this distinct smell that brings back childhood like a mutha.
- I can still picture Grapenuts, Vienna Sausages, and Cracklin' Oat Bran in the pantry. This was NOT a fun destination for snack food as a small child.
- the little mirror/medicine cabinets in the bathrooms (so old skool, yet cool!)
- the massive sliding doors on closets and pantries that can get "off track" and not roll correctly.
- the stencils of ducks on random objects in the kitchen
- the hideous stenciling in the utility room (that was BIG in the mid-to-late 80's)
- lying in my grandparent's bedroom, which is now our bedroom, staring at the wall and thinking, "this is the same frickin' POV I had when I was a kid taking a nap in this room with my grandma! Whoa!"
- how small the backyard is now that I'm a grown-up
- how big that small tree I remember as a kid is now

I could go on, but you get the point. It's a great house. I'm nearly right across the street from David Eldridge and his family, which is a bonus, as we've been great friends since high school. We are enjoying the place and still need to find a home for all the contents in boxes in the carport, but that's news for another post..... I will try to post some pictures soon.

Unseen Worlds

2008-01-28T23:28:00.001-05:00

No, this is not a post about aliens or other galaxies. Yes, I'm a fan of some classic sci-fi films, but that's going into territory I don't touch.

I have this thought that comes into my mind sometimes about other cultures and countries I've never seen before. I'll be driving around town or shuffling through the myriad lists of things I have to do and I'll think:

There are places I have never seen, people I have never encountered, areas I will never set foot in...... that have been around for as long as Marietta/Georgia - or much longer. They have histories, their share of ups and downs, people just like me who are living life, day to day. There are millions of people living in this city of Atlanta. I only know a tiny fraction of those persons. This is only one city in the United States.

It blows me away to think of all the cities, houses, peoples and communities that function like a mad, chugging factory every, single day. To take it even further, think of all the generations of people that have passed before us. Think of all the nations, civilizations, and governments that have existed.

This is mind-blowing. It makes me realize how ridiculous our culture is in 2008. We can be so ultra-focused on how we look, how we feel, and how we're measuring up. We are quite confident and proud of ourselves.

We're a small drop in the ocean of time. And God's seen it all.

Props to the Hen-Man

2008-01-26T10:00:00.000-05:00

OK, the time is due to give some "propahs" to my little 1.5 year-old son, Henry (aka "Hen-man," "Henny"). You see the amazing Zoe's picture everytime I post on the blog or post a comment elsewhere, since she's my icon picture. She resides in the spotlight, so Henry is moving up for a turn. I'm including some pictures, which I know will produce the "oohs" and "ahs" from the womenfolk in the audience. I will predict, too, that I'll have more response to this post than any of my recent ones. What kind of world do we live in when a post on miracles or Top 5 guitarists gets the hand and one with a cute kid shuts down the server because of overload? Hey, I would give some attention to this kid, too, because he IS cute and he IS awesome.

Now, to explain the pictures:

This is from our annual family Christmas party this year. The theme (yes, we have themes) was "Mafia Christmas." I was chowing down on some pasta when I went a little too hard on my plastic fork. My hand is frozen in the same position where the fork last was on the plate. Truly, the fork snapped in half, my hand went down to the edge of the plate, and like a catapult, I sent noodles flying for about 4 feet to my right. You can see some noodles still on my black overcoat. Henny is chilling beside me, eating (as always.....kid loves food) some noodles with his hair slicked back. You can see Zoe in the background, too.

This second one is from Henry's birthday party this year. The inevitable "first party." It was fun, for sure. This picture was taken by our friend, Matt Swanson, on his phat daddy camera. As you can see, the lens on that bad boy is superior. It looks like a postcard, complete with perfectly placed beams of sunlight cutting across the chalkboard, and highlighting Henny's spiked-up hair.

Word. Enjoy the boy. He's the coolest.

Miracles

2008-01-12T21:20:00.000-05:00

I have a feeling this will be long >>>>

I got to thinking about "the miracles question" today: Do Miracles Still Happen?

Something in the wording of that question hints at randomness. More to the point of what I was thinking is "Does God Still Perform Miracles Today?"

The main thing that sparked my thinking was all the things in the past few years that have happened to people we know. People who've had terminal illnesses; Laura's sister, Bekah, who was in the car accident; my brother and his wife trying to have a baby.
In all of these situations, a miraculous healing either did or didn't take place. Several people from our church did not survive their bouts with cancer. Much prayer went up to heaven on their behalf. Does God not exist because they weren't healed? Or, in a worse scenario, does God not care for some people enough to heal them? I believe we have to release these situations to God, in His sovereignty and wisdom. We cannot see all the angles; we cannot fathom the reasons that make up the big picture. For whatever reasons, God either does perform a miracle or He does not, in any given situation.

When I go through this mental journey, I have to look at the historical record. In the Old Testament, God has a long, varied track record of performing supernatural feats to show His power. Old Testament's record of God's miracle-performing power: check. Look to the New Testament. Jesus - the embodiment of God on the earth - performed miracles during his ministry here. Wherever Jesus went, miracles flowed out of His presence. Crowds swarmed around Him to "get a piece" of the power to see healing in their lives. New Testament's record of God's miracle-performing power: check. It's in God's nature and character to perform miracles.

So, what's the deal today?

From all the accounts I've heard and read, supernatural healings and miracles of all sorts are occurring at a higher rate in other nations besides America. I believe this is because of the lack of pride and humanistic thinking in these areas. Places such as South America, Latin America, parts of Asia --- these are the outposts of miracles today. People who are desperate for God to move and have full faith in God to do miraculous works will see it happen. We, in America, are much more prone to be cynical or to look for solutions in ourselves. In many cases, we block the work of God because of our self-reliance.

Much of this goes to the subject of the medical field. I believe medicine is miraculous. Much of what has been discovered and put into practice these days is amazing. However, the praise for this advancement of medical science is more often than not going to the people that forge it. Ever since technology has grown and advanced in the past couple of centuries, humanity has, in its weakness, taken credit for so many things and become self-absorbed. Because we can now do so much, we don't really have a need for God, some would say. Medicine and science will eventually find a way to solve all of our problems. Right?

When we get to the point where we're out of options, where nothing is working that we thought would.....when we are desperate..... then God will move...... sometimes. I believe that desperation leads to more miracles being performed. Not to say that everything will be solved by a miraculous intervention of God; this side of heaven won't ever be perfect. But I do believe that when an atmosphere of revival is present and when the spiritual hunger of a people reaches a near fever-pitch, healing will be the doctor of the day. God will show His power over created order. Medicine and science will not be able to explain.

Still, not all will believe or accredit the praise to God. There will always be doubts and other explanations until everyone is laid bare before the Person of God. So, does God shy away from miracles or use them as a "last-ditch effort" because He doesn't want people to view Him as only a vending machine of healing magic or a cool magician? Possibly.

OK, enough thoughts on this for now. That was a very long post.

There Will Be Blood

2008-01-12T20:41:00.000-05:00

Being a fan of Paul Thomas Anderson's work, I'm excited to be hearing all the buzz about his latest film:

There Will Be Blood.

P.T. Anderson excels in many areas of filmmaking: writing, directing ensembles, visual design & camerawork. I believe he's one of the modern masters of the medium. My personal favorite of his is Magnolia, an amazing piece of storytelling while, although brutal, shines through with redemption in the end.

One aspect that's exciting about TWBB is Daniel Day-Lewis' acting. I've read this is a jaw-dropping performance. I'm a fan of Day-Lewis' work from years past, especially My Left Foot and In The Name of The Father. Extremely talented and intense, he's one of the best actors of this generation. To see his acting paired with P.T. Anderson's directing will be powerful.

The other very exciting aspect of the movie is that Jonny Greenwood from Radiohead has performed the original music. I've read that it revolutionizes the way music works with a movie. J. Greenwood is already an incredible guitarist in his own right (as I've mentioned in the post-before-last), so to see him translate that talent into a movie soundtrack is intriguing.

Anyone interested in seeing this? I foresee a caravan to the theater.

Small Bite of Nostalgia

2008-01-04T23:21:00.000-05:00

I like to dabble in poetry, from time to time. It's a fun exercise in being focused and capturing images/feelings in an abstract way.

If any of you visited Lake Koinonia in Woodstock, GA. back when "the posse" lived up there in the mid-to-late 80's/early 90's, then you've had the groundwork done for you. Here it is, entitled, "The Lake."

Crawling fearfully across an empty lake
via the enormous log bridge
Clutching and fearing the worst
the silt below seeming like quicksand
Exploring the unchartered territory
as a shoe falls down and drowns

The creepy shack
on a hill across the way
Abandoned and run down
We walk through
and conquer any lies
we imagined

Building forts and platforms on trees
Swinging from ski ropes
Ditches
Hideouts
Mud smells and dries crusty

Bell rings for supper
Moccasins hiding under docks
Camping overnight
Four-wheelers up and down the dam
Little brother on his back

Many memories
locked away
with the burnt-red sunsets
of those magic hours

Top 5 Favorite Guitarists

2007-12-29T12:03:00.002-05:00

OK... for all you music geeks out there. It's your chance to list your top 5 favorite guitarists. First of all, let me say that my choices are probably not the "traditional" favorites. I don't particularly enjoy blues or straight-up rock, so you won't find any Hendrix or Stevie Ray Vaughn on this list. My "sound" is more along the lines of alternative guiatar, with plenty of atmospherics; I appreciate the guys who can create a tone. Here are mine, with expanded notes and ruminations.

1. The Edge from U2

Otherwise known as Dave Evans, this guy is my favorite, hands-down. He took what had been done before him and created his own sound. Using plenty of effects, no doubt, The Edge has created some of the most beautiful soundscapes on record. He uses tons of pedals. His sound is huge, with effective use of echo. I'm sure most of you have heard U2 (!!), but if not, be sure to listen to their work on headphones. My favorite album of theirs to hear Edge's work is 1984's "The Unforgettable Fire."

2. Jonny Greenwood from Radiohead

I first noticed JG as a guitarist on his own after listening to "The Bends" in my college apartment in 1995. It was an awesome album and still stands as my favorite of theirs today. Greenwood can make some amazing sounds come out of his guitar. His work is complex and fits in nicely with Radiohead's experimental nature. Listen to "Just" from "The Bends" to hear this guy's chops. J. Greenwood is sure to be a legend.

3. Johnny Marr from The Smiths

Yet another Johnny on the list. This guy is an icon. He has created some of the classics of late 80's/early 90's British alternative music. His sound is highly melodic. Marr pioneered much of the "alternative" sound of his era, using effects to make new sounds. His guitar work is sometimes referred to as "jangly." One of the best examples of his unique sound is the song "How Soon is Now?" Johnny Marr is currently playing in the band, Modest Mouse.

4. Brian Futter from Catherine Wheel

Brian Futter is one amazing guitarist. His style is sometimes called "shoegazing." Using large amounts of distortion, reverb, and echo, his work can make it seem like a "wall of sound" is being created. CW has a brutal sound, at times, and Futter's work shines through. Their most well-known song is "Black Metallic." If you want to hear a showcase of the guitarwork, I would recommend the song, "Strange Fruit," or "Crank."

5. Julian Swales from Kitchens of Distinction (he's on the right)

Probably the least-known of all the guitarists listed here, Julian Swales deserves some recognition, nonetheless. His sound is characterized by a swirling, chiming, echo-laden vibe. He was also grouped into the "shoegazing" class of music. Extremely atmospheric, Swales sounded like several guitarists layered over each other, even though it was just his one-man show. Many of his songs have such a chaotic, blisteringly beautiful sound, especially on headphones, where you can hear all the little details. Check out the songs, "When in Heaven," "Sand on Fire," and "Mad as Snow."

***** Honorable Mention: Kevin Shields from My Bloody Valentine; John Squire from The Stone Roses; Dean Garcia from Curve; Jez Williams from Doves; Graham Coxon from Blur; John McCollum from The Afghan Whigs; Thurston Moore from Sonic Youth; Andy Dunlop from Travis; Cammy from The La's; Joey Santiago from The Pixies ******

Morbid Marketing

2007-12-12T13:05:00.000-05:00

I was driving past Kennesaw Memorial Park & Mausoleums today and couldn't help but notice the phrase posted below their road sign.

"2008 Calendars are here."

I blinked and smiled. Similar in odd nature to the puzzling phrase on Marietta Middle School's road sign (blogged about by KTB awhile back), this is one that'll make you wonder. I could only imagine what some of that calendar's pages would look like:

I mean, I know they're a business and probably trying to just raise some funds, but I can't imagine this one jumping to the top of the NYT BestSellers List.

Apologies to all who have this heartwarming item hanging in their home or office.

B2FII: The Poster

2007-12-05T10:26:00.000-05:00

Yes, another post. And I'm really not trying to kiss up for B2FII. Really.

The Battle in our Hearts

2007-12-05T09:47:00.000-05:00

I wanted to squeeze in one more post before B2FII. Do I qualify?? Kidding.

In our small group, we often are discussing something where the root cause of the problem is discovered to be: CONTROL. This really is the underlying root cause of everything in our lives --- who is in control? Ironically enough, Janet Jackson might've been a genius by naming her first album this very thing.

I was watching something on the History Channel last night (I never thought I'd end up watching this channel, but here I am in 2007, doing just that. I'm an old man) about time travel. It was documenting humankind's fascination with going forward or backward in time. There was some juicy stuff about Einstein's theories and the nature of wormholes (I never though I'd be interested in this subject in high school, but here I am in 2007, doing just that. I'm a nerd). All very interesting. Toward the end, they started talking about the possibility of going back in time to change the future. "Would it ever be possible," they said. "What would the consequences be for tweaking with past events," they inquired. Very, very intriguing stuff, indeed.

So, this made me think about our current status in the world's history. We live in the age where we've discovered so many things that once were mysteries to peoples of the past. Cures to diseases. The ability to predict weather systems with a fair amount of accuracy. Why things act the way they do. Of course, there are still some things out of our reach. The cure to the common cold. The ability to travel back in time to change our past.

These things are out of our control. Especially with time travel, I strongly believe we'll never gain that ability. This is one of those things that fall in the category of "out of reach." There are things that are God-abilities and things that are human-abilities. God controls time and space. Einstein might have discovered more than any other person in this area. We gained insight that is astounding. But we are limited to the knowing of it; we aren't allowed access to the altering of it.

On the History Channel show, there were so many scientists and professors brimming with excitement and hope at the possibility of time travel. There would be so much that could be controlled if this came to pass. We could be in charge of our destinies, both then, now. and later. We would essentially be our own gods.

However, with the way things are created, we are subject to the Lordship of Jesus. We either reject God as God or we accept God as God. This is the battle we face, day to day, in our own hearts. Who is in control? Who are we trusting? We either accept God and rely on his timetable, his will, his way or we rely on our own way. This is the way the world is running, headlong. Humanism has great belief in itself. Arrogance is at an all time high, in terms of what humans can accomplish. I believe we keep seeing little cracks in the wall, little mistakes, fallacies, that humans create, because of our choices. We continue, as a planet, to hurtle through history with the belief that we can make things right, we can find perfection on our own. I don't think so.

We must accept who we are and who God is. The miracle is that by doing this (admitting our shortcomings and our weaknesses), we begin a transformation. We don't end the process by accepting who we are as fallen humans. God begins to weave in his mercy to create a new person, one that becomes a renewed image of God's redemptive perfection. I know I have to choose God's way with each new dawn. Easier said than done, though. The battle rages on for each of our lives.

Novel Update

2007-11-19T00:19:00.001-05:00

Word count: 5136. I sit 11 days until the end of the month. I'm a hair past the 1/10th mark. I know I should be just past 25000 to be "on track." Oh well. I'm happy with the small progress. This thing is a jump-start on more to come. If I'm this far by month's end, it's more than I had at the beginning.

Writing is taking one step at a time.

Recapturing the Wonder

2007-11-18T08:56:00.000-05:00

The title of this blog is such a cliche. You've heard it countless times, used in different ways, for different reasons. It can be cheesy and overly sentimental. However, I thought of these exact words this morning when I realized something.

Laura was reading to me. It was the lesson she had prepared for the Garden at church (our children's ministry). She was talking about how there are many good people in our lives, but that Jesus was different, in that he was more than a merely good person. She spoke of the Transfiguration. I remembered hearing about that when I was young. Who knows when I first heard it (probably in Sunday school in elementary school)? She spoke of Jesus being the Son of God. She spoke of how we are invited into a friendship with Jesus and how special that is.

And I just felt normal. "Yeah, yeah, that's true," I thought to myself.

I told her it was good and well-done (which it was). But I was sitting there thinking about how nonchalant I had become. Yes, I know all these things and I believe them. But, I sit there hearing all the facts and it doesn't move my heart. All these magnificent things don't cause my heart and imagination to soar. It worries me.

Is it because I've heard it since I was a kid, surrounded by it at home and once a week at church (or more if there was VBS [Vacation Bible School; I don't want to assume everyone knows] going on that week)? Is it because I'm not connecting to God through the Holy Spirit as often as I should? There's nothing major in my life that has disappointed me recently. There's nothing I'm bitter at God about that I can put a finger on. Is it just a collective bum-out at life, in general?

I don't know.

I want to recapture that sense of realizing who God is, day to day. Sure, I know it's like any relationship, to a degree. You don't live in a constant state of high. But, I remember a time when I was young (junior high) and there was a girl who I noticed. I remember knowing about her and wanting to meet her. I remember finally forging a relationship, to the point where if we saw each other in passing, she would say 'hello.' I remember the thrill of realizing that I had come from a place of not being in relationship at all with this girl to being in a place where she actually knew who I was. It made my spirit leap. My head was dizzy. It was the greatest thing in the world.

If I can just have that light dawn on my heart again, I know a revitalization will take place. It's not all about feelings or living on mountaintops, but these things are an integral part of a vibrant walk with Christ through life.

Novel Progress

2007-11-05T00:30:00.000-05:00

2060 words. That's where I sit early Monday morning. It feels great to be writing. Words are flowing and characters are becoming more concrete, through words and actions. Mr. Thelonious Monk and Mr. John Coltrane have provided the sweet background music tonight. Things are good.

Although I'm behind on my word count (should be up to 6670 by now), I'm happy. Coming off a busy weekend of coffee shop work and helping around the house with a not-feeling-so-good wife, this is what accomplishment against the odds is all about.

Bottom line is I'm writing a story, finally. The pressure of deadlines and word counts is an awesome motivator. This story and these characters have been rolling around the landscape of my mind for a decade now and they're starting to get bored in there. I'm glad to assist their escape.

This week, we enter into "Holiday Time" at work. Things will become busier and busier. God preserve my mind.

Listen Up

2007-11-01T17:14:00.000-04:00

So, in the spirit of NaBloPoMo, I'm writing a post today. Thank the Lord I didn't sign up for it! However, several of my friends and fellow blogmies (surely some of which are reading this now) have taken this challenge, for better or worse. I have, for some crazy reason, decided to sign up for NaNoWriMo (see post below). I'm excited and encouraged because I did start off the month-long challenge with a bang, by writing 1303 words of the novel last night. I would love to keep up the pace each day, but that will take a miracle. It was thrilling to see the words coming from the tapping on the keyboard and characters coming to life on the page. Even if I don't write the full 50,000 (!!) words by month's end, I'll have more than I ever would without the deadline setting.

As I was thinking about writing a book, an image of Barnes and Noble came into my mind. I love the place. I could camp out there all day and read stuff (I actually used to camp out there for 8 hour blocks at a time...but I was employed by the company and had to curb my reading on the job. But I digress..). I'm amazed when I go there at all the books which keep coming out. Even more astounding is the website. Millions of books. When you look at media, in general, there is a gluttony of words and information. With iTunes, cable TV, bookstores, the internet, TiVo, Netflix..... we are gorged with talking from all sides. I think, if all these people are talkng, who's listening? Andy Warhol's "15 minutes of fame" theory plays some part in this seemingly massive quest for significance that all these authors/artists are pursuing. But, hey, I'm in the race, as well. Trying to write a novel. Switchfoot has a song, "Adding to the Noise." It seems like I'm doing just that. I hope, like all these other writers, that what I have to say will make some difference or have some effect on people.

Since we, collectively, are "the audience" for all this media, then we are the listeners. So, yes, there are those that talk (so many) and those that listen. But we that listen have so much to listen to. It can seem like we're just trying to keep up with all the important things that we should know. How often does God get drowned out in all this ocean of sound? I need to stop and listen to the still, small Voice.

Stunner: U2 Live, 2001, Boston

2007-10-25T22:50:00.000-04:00

This is what I'm talkin' about. This band is the one to see live before you pass from the Earth.

John Mark & Bekah, it's on your list. You betta.

Here is just a reminder of why they're still the best around. The song is somewhat of an intercession/prayer for a friend they knew growing up in Ireland, who was addicted to heroin. A beautiful song. It gives me chills. Note: this song came out 23 years ago!

Just Do It.

2007-10-23T23:28:00.000-04:00

I don't know if this will be a total disaster or not, but I've signed on. You see, I started writing a screenplay back in 1997. I had about 1/3 of it finished, but it just fizzled. Dialogue was problematic. I recently (honestly, about 2 years ago) decided to give this story a "go!" in the form of a novel, instead. I have 2 (that's right: TWO) paragraphs of a rough draft done. Yikes. I know, I could pass blame on the fact that I have a pretty busy, demanding job, an amazing wife, and 2 great kids. Who has time to write? Well, I just don't want to go the excuse route. This little venture seems a great Focus/Motivation technique. We shall see.

It's right at the beginning of Holiday season at work (read: I work in a retail environment), which can be creeping insanity. However, I've survived this time period 4 previous years, including 1 as a manager.

To say it might be a challenge is an understatement. Let the games begin!

"Once upon a time....."

Real-Life Far Side Comic

2007-10-21T09:23:00.000-04:00

Time: 10:50pm, 10.20.07

I was driving back from work last night. Not quite into my neighborhood, I was weaving through the streets toward Lee's Crossing. Out of the corner of my eye, I see something quickly moving in the dimness. I put on slight brakes. Then I notice it's a bunch of deer. Pretty cool. I slow down and 3 of them dart across the road.

I was about to go forward when I noticed there was 1 deer left. He was hesitant of the car, I'm sure. Without fully thinking my actions through (and probably because I had just been at work for 9 hours), I gave this animal a quick flash of my bright headlights. You know, like a signal you give to some other driver that it's OK to go? Problem is, I was dealing with a deer. It's like I was saying, "Hey, you go ahead, buddy. Catch up with your four-legged hoofed brethren." He waited a second, then trotted across the road. I put my foot on the gas. I then realized I had given a deer my brights. Sad thing is: I used a modern method of automobile communication with an animal. Cool thing is: The deer understood it.

'Stache

2007-10-03T22:56:00.000-04:00

Ladies, I'm sorry for being a bit biased, but I have to say to all the men:

"Begin the lip rugs now - let the revolution begin!"

Get those things growing. Who's with me?

The Institute

Relevant Gentlemen's Society

Thoughts on Apologetics

2007-10-03T00:16:00.000-04:00

I was thinking today about a conversation I was having with a somewhat new friend. Granted, it was a "cyber conversation" (blogmies, you'll understand..... we don't talk in "real life," we're just shy hermits who shimmy 'round the 'Net too much. please no) but it's a topic that led me into further thought on my own. I always tend to come back to the subject of free will (see archived posts for several more on that one). It's fascinating and the root cause of so much of who we are in relation to God. It's central to our identity.

I was saying in the conversation that I was glad God looked at the inside of our hearts instead of how we physically appear. Particularly, I was speaking in reference to how we have a "casual" look at Riverstone, for the most part. We don't have to put on a suit on Sundays to look "approved" for church. Or smile a white smile to everyone to assure them that "we're ok!" God doesn't judge by those standards and essentially looks right through the facade.

However, I was thinking that I don't like leaving the impression that God just looks at our hearts and that's the end-all. If we just have "good" hearts and we're not particularly "bad" people (I really do love using those quotation marks. Sorry, I like 'em) that's what really matters. We just need to have that human goodness and we'll get by. Right?

It struck me then that the main thing God is looking for is the spirit of Jesus in our hearts. Without Jesus, God cannot look at us and have relationship. Our sin makes it impossible for Him. Impossible for God? Ridiculous, you think. Nothing is impossible with God, I thought. It's that holiness factor, though. This is something that can be difficult to explain when having conversation with people. God, in His holiness, cannot abide by sin. Therefore, we are out of relationship from the get-go. Does this mean that His heart isn't for us or that He doesn't yearn for us? NO. God most certainly, and with a deeper love that I can fathom, does desire for us to come to Him and be made one. That's the whole reason God sent Jesus to die in our place so salvation could be available to us. Jesus is the bridge of holiness for us; He satisfies our debt by death and He satisfies the "holiness" factor that we can never attain. Therefore, God sees Jesus (who He is head over heels about) in our place when He looks at us.

The usual next step in a conversation would be about God allowing sin in the first place. Why would He even let it get to this point that we would be separated? And there we travel back in a circle to the first thing I mentioned about free will. God has to give us free will or we would be automatons. Does a man who keeps a woman locked in his basement, handcuffed, and still calls her his "wife" really love her? Obvious no. Yet that is what we would be if we had no free will. Would we really love God if we had to? That would be unfair to us and God would be fooling Himself. So, no, free will has to be the standard. God risks enough for us to be capable of the highest good or the lowest, most despicable evil. That's the gamble. He respects us enough to let that be an option so we can choose.

I know much of this will be stuff you might already know or agree with. Maybe so. But, if not, maybe it will stir some new questions or thoughts in your heart. I know it was reinvigorating for me to connect these dots once again. It makes it fresh.

Kid Update 2007

2007-09-29T00:08:00.000-04:00

OK, kids are the ones that keep us fresh, right? I can vote for that with an emphatic YES.

We seem to have a daughter with an emerging case of OCD on our hands. Zoe is persistent, at times, in how things should be....as she believes they should be. The following picture makes wonderful sense after you know what she's saying. Here's how it went:

Zoe: These pacies don't match!

Me: It's ok, though. They're alright.

Zoe: I just don't understand..... (said with a very dramatic, depressive tone)

*******

Earlier today, as I was home watching the kids, Henry was exploring our living room when I was heating up my lunch in the kitchen. I took a glance across the room to make sure he was OK. I saw something dark green-colored below his lip. A bit panicked, I ran over and looked at him. Was it a pen he chewed? No. A crayon? Nope. Then I saw it....... a roach was lying beneath the TV. Something was missing on this little bug..... Henry started his journey toward Survivor Man today. [Laura, I'm so sorry, but I couldn't help but share our joy... :)]

Kids: A sure-fire antidote to apathy and boredom.

p.s. It is Henry's 1st B-day today! Hey oh!

p.s.s. Someone with more Blogger Skillz can show me how to position the pictures where I want them. They always go wherever they wish.

Comic Gold

2007-09-26T00:11:00.000-04:00

Although I've missed the 20th anniversary of the theatrical release date by 6 months & 13 days, there is no better time to sing the praises of RAISING ARIZONA. If you have not seen this, it must be included in a future installment of B2F. Quirky and comic book-like, you will have trouble not quoting the genius dialogue. I have seen this more than any other movie and when asked what my favorite movie is, I'm hard pressed to top this gem. Nicholas Cage's hair is mind-blowing.

The line about Yoda pajamas is amazing.

If that intrigues you, more power to you - go rent it. If that revolts you, I don't what else we have to talk about.

Where idea becomes reality: B2F

2007-09-25T00:04:00.000-04:00

Just a sketch. I cannot capture the feel of the evening. We ate chips until the dip turned into a form of plastic.
We laughed at old memories. We didn't communicate like we do on our blogs - sometimes there were uncomfortable silences. We made geekball references to the frustrations of word verification. We enjoyed those that attended and mourned those who couldn't make it (for various reasons). Fear not - this was but the first B2F.

If this was any measure, there will surely be more to follow. Here, here.

New favorite website: ListVerse

2007-09-22T10:35:00.000-04:00

www.listverse.com

This site is awesome. You can find out all kinds of information to tickle the brain.

This takes Top Ten lists to another level.

Phrase of our Times

2007-09-22T10:29:00.001-04:00

I can't get this out of my head. Laura and I laugh when we say this to each other.

The situation that birthed this phrase is strange, and this is a winner in my book. The tazed guy should copyright it. And I have to get one of these bumper stickers.

Avoiding the Black Hole

2007-09-16T22:42:00.000-04:00

One of the things that blows my mind when I think about it is the eternal nature of God. Our society grows more fast-paced and temporary, day by day. So much is disposable. While we live on this spinning planet, working out the victories and frustrations of life, God sits above it all, in a wholly different time-space. Here, from God's P.O.V., He sees it ALL. He not only sees everything in my life --- what's been and what will be --- but He sees every single human being's life, from beginning to end. He sees the beginning of human time and the end of it. To stretch farther, He sees before human time began and afterwards throughout eternity. It is truly mind-blowing.

I believe people sense the emptiness of much of our modern times. The "malaise," so to speak. When so much of the media is focused on celebrities, you can see where things are headed. They are our modern "gods," when we remove God from our lives. These people are built up into ideals which they cannot fulfill. I'm sure, in their heart of hearts, they sense how utterly silly it is when someone screams or faints in their presence. They must think, "What? It's just me. I know who I am and there's no use for that type of amazement." What's even more sad and dangerous is when a celebrity actually buys into the fantasy and believes themselves to be of such importance. This is when the ugly face of humanism shows itself naked; the behavior is linked in similarity to that of Lucifer, when that beautiful being decided that he wanted some of the glory due to God. I hate to "go there," but look at the case of Paris Hilton. I'm not one to really follow her life, but it was hard to avoid when she was put in jail. Every form of media had something to say. Now, as for who Paris Hilton is and what she's famous for, that's where we find ourselves dumbfounded. She is not famous for anything, in particular, except that she's a celebrity. She's just famous. She, I believe, is the ultimate in emptiness. Her image is everything, she apparently has a very high opinion of herself and her opinion obviously is important, at least in her mind. She is a vacuous black hole of an ego.

Now I circle back around to make this point: God is all-consuming and eternal. God exists outside of our time and space, although He also interacts on our playing field, which is double amazing. God is WORTHY. We are not worthy of that sort of praise. Celebrities are not worthy of that sort of praise. We, as a people, are built to worship....something. When God is not on the radar, other things, people, and obsessions fill that space. It's a travesty. When the true identity of that object is revealed, the charade is up and we see it for what it is - not worthy. Not worthy of the time and energy we invested. I remember one girl growing up who loved the band, The Cure. I used to listen to them a good bit, too, back in the day. When I spoke to her years later, I asked if she still liked them. She commented that, no, she really didn't like them too much anymore and she had moved on to other music. She said that it was a sort of "high school" crush she had on them, but now it was gone. It's so funny to me to see how I can observe that pattern in my life. I have "crushes" on certain things, things that capture my attention for a brief spell then go out like a candle.

I am asking God that, by His grace, I will be able to focus my attention, my time, my energy on this earth toward eternal things. With the recent loss of Laura's sister, Bekah, it has forced me to put the brakes on life and examine what's important. Our lives here are out of our hands; we don't hold much control, if any. I want to discard the illusion that I call the shots. I want to embrace the reality that God is the Alpha and the Omega and I am a slight blip on the timeline of this earth's history. May I act and live wisely.

...and now for something completely different....

2007-09-13T17:15:00.001-04:00

....get your mind in the right place....early/mid-80's....prepare to have your jaw drop to the floor....

Hannibal would be chomping his cigar with satisfaction right about now.

Light in the Dark

2007-08-27T17:24:00.001-04:00

There can be hope that, even in the darkest times (and usually even moreso), God is at work.

We have seen that this weekend. Laura's younger sister, Bekah, was in a terrible auto accident Saturday evening. Her car went off the road and in an attempt to correct this, she overcompensated and the car flipped. She suffered multiple broken bones (in the face, her ribs, and her arm),and her lungs were badly injured. She was airlifted from St. Simons/Brunswick to Savannah for their trauma unit's help.

We were in Athens, visiting my brother and his wife, when we heard the news. We left there and arrived in Savannah around 3 am. Laura went to the ER and I took the kids' to Laura's aunt's house.

We have been in and out of the hospital. The doctors tried to perform some surgery for a dissected aortic valve early Sunday morning. They stopped when Bekah's lungs weren't strong enough to handle it. She actually died and was revived with the shock paddles. When she was brought back to the ICU area, she once again flatlined but was brought back to life.

She is now on life support and her lungs are gaining strength. Her brain suffered some bruising, but no damage that can be detected. Her liver and spleen have stopped bleeding.

There has been a massive amount of prayer going up to the throne of God on Bekah's behalf. It is an amazing miracle so far to see her life sustained.

Please continue praying if you are reading this. We pray for her continued healing and for the glory of God Almighty to show through in Bekah's life. The Spirit of Jesus is mighty to save.

Henry: Walker in Training

2007-08-15T21:36:00.001-04:00

Here is yet another video clip (can you tell this is kinda fun?) of our other superstar, Henry Taylor. He's up-and-coming and, by the looks of these moves, will not grow up in the shadows of his older sister.

Zoe as a cartoon character

2007-08-15T20:49:00.000-04:00

My best friend and I had a ridiculous language we spoke with in junior high. Zoe has absorbed this native tongue and is in the fetal stages of speaking it fluently. A bit of silliness between Dad and daughter.

Live Music: History

2007-08-11T17:03:00.001-04:00

I was thinking about being a music lover..... and how many of my good friends (and fellow bloggers) are, as well. Thinking back on the concerts I've seen in the past, I was amazed at how many shows I've been to. I've decided to try and give a comprehensive list of who I've seen and where, in no particular chronological order. Here goes.... I might have to come back and update this post as I remember shows:

U2 - Georgia Dome (w/Public Enemy & B.A.D.II) , Death Valley (Clemson University; w/ Rage Against the Machine), Phillips Arena (2x, once w/ Institute)
MuteMath - JackRabbit Slims, 40 Watt (w/ The Working Title), The Loft, Variety Playhouse
Travis - The Tabernacle
Radiohead - The Masquerade
Afghan Whigs - Bowery Ballroom, Masquerade
The Sundays (w/ Luna) - Variety Playhouse
Sebadoh - 40 Watt
Yo La Tengo - Variety Playhouse, 40 Watt
Luna - 40 Watt
Third Day - Lakewood (I mean, HiFi Buys...)
The Cure - Lakewood
Coldplay - The Tabernacle
Catherine Wheel - Cotton Club
Moby - Bowery Ballroom
Blur - Roseland Ballroom
Jars of Clay - somewhere in NYC (can't remember), The Roxy
Massive Attack - The Roxy
Portishead - The Roxy
Joseph Arthur - Smith's Olde Bar
POD - some festival in Tennessee
Curve - The Masquerade
Delirious? - The Roxy
doves - The Roxy
Everyone - Trinity Vineyard Church
Amy Grant (1st concert ever) - Omni (R.I.P.)
Nirvana - Tallahassee Civic Center
Iona - that same festival in Tennessee
James - The Roxy
REM - some amphitheater in New Jersey
Sonic Youth - Legion Field (Athens)
Live - Legion Field, Athens (Athens)
Ten Shekel Shirt - Atlanta Vineyard, some warehouse in Athens
The Violet Burning - Atlanta Vineyard
Drivin' n' Cryin' - 40 Watt (I helped run the visual hoopla that looped on screens in the background)
The Flaming Lips - 40 Watt
Sting/Natalie Merchant - Lakewood
Brian Setzer Orchestra - Chastain Park Amphitheater
Weezer - Athens (Classic Center)
Cowboy Junkies - Georgia Theater
Luxury - some little place that used to be in Atlanta ("lizard"-something??)
Jets to Brazil - The Earl
DJ Logic - Georgia Theater

Real Life certainly stranger than fiction...

2007-08-08T19:05:00.000-04:00

Although I didn't personally witness this event, it takes the cake for surrealist piece of the day:

Giant Lego man found in Dutch sea
Tue Aug 7, 2007 4:56PM BST

AMSTERDAM (Reuters) - A giant, smiling Lego man was fished out of the sea in the Dutch resort of Zandvoort on Tuesday.
Workers at a drinks stall rescued the 2.5-metre (8-foot) tall model with a yellow head and blue torso.
"We saw something bobbing about in the sea and we decided to take it out of the water," said a stall worker. "It was a life-sized Lego toy."

A woman nearby added: "I saw the Lego toy floating towards the beach from the direction of England."
The toy was later placed in front of the drinks stall.

Classic Real-life Comedy

2007-08-06T23:18:00.000-04:00

I was in line at Publix the other night. Grabbing some chicken tenders at their deli, I needed to pay for the poultry and get back to work. The kid in the checkout was helping the customer in front of me, and in the back of my mind, I'm sure I noticed the sweet track of music playing over the speaker system in the grocery: Seal's "Kiss From a Rose." What I then noticed was that as he was transitioning from ringing up the previous customer to ringing up my meal, he was mouthing words, while looking down. I thought, "what is he saying?" and "who is he talking to?" Then, to my horror and delight, I put 2 and 2 together. This young buck had Seal in his soul. The part of the song that he was so synched up to was (courtesy of www.lyricsmania.com):

"My power, my pleasure, my pain!!"

I moved to type the info into the debit card reader and my inner smile was lit up. Not only did the kid have a thin, gold chain around his neck, but I believe he had no clue that I saw his hidden drama. Was he up on a stage in his mind, wowing the crowd? Who knows. But I witnessed the awesomeness of that moment and it made me smile. It had a surreal, Napoleon Dynamite-feel to it. And knowing how those in-store music systems work, I'm sure at least 5-6 more fortunate customers had the odd pleasure of seeing the same thing.....probably that same day.

Concerts coming to ATL

2007-07-15T23:16:00.001-04:00

Wow.... 3 great bands coming to ATL in the near future.....

Travis: July 29th - Tabernacle
Interpol: September 21st - Tabernacle
(show recently added to their tour...Atlanta wasn't on the original list I saw)

*new addition, as of 8.6.07* Mute Math - November 3rd - Tabernacle again!

Looks like I might be visiting the 'nacle.

MiddleMeet

2007-06-24T00:43:00.000-04:00

Is there any way to reconcile
heaven and earth?
Spirit realm exists apart
yet interacts with life on earth

Our spirits locked up in bodies
minds as battlefields
mix and mingle
they do

Jesus, can you bridge us
to the great Other?

Teach us to speak
Teach us to listen

Simplicity

2007-06-19T23:18:00.000-04:00

In lack of motion
verbosity
comes to a halt

peace found in
utter security

stillness
silence

God resides
deep inside

The Perfect Plot

2007-05-14T00:47:00.000-04:00

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Observing the world around us today, I would say we are living in what's known as "the last days." I won't try to put any type of timetable on it, but it seems like we are on the precipice of those turbulent times. Reading the news or watching TV, there are "wars and rumors of wars." Our weather systems are in flux and we can't go too long without seeing some kind of storm that wreaks havoc. Lawlessness is most certainly the rule of the day. It appears many items on the "Book of Revelation checklist" will be checked, if they haven't already.

In church today, our pastor was talking about healing and how Jesus responds to faith. When someone is at the end of their rope and they are desperate for healing, they long for the release of healing. When that person puts full faith in Jesus, He responds with healing power. Today, so many are dealing with countless sicknesses, hurts, and diseases. Our world is ripe for healing. We are so close to being at the end of our collective rope.

Satan only wants to "kill, steal, and destroy." He is unleashing his greatest assault on the human race at this time. This is where we can go two different ways in how we respond. One path to take is the one of intimidation, fear, and hopelessness. This is the ultimate path that Satan wants us to go. At the end of this road is a lack of faith. We are left with frustration, anger, and emptiness. The other path is one of hope and faith. It's where we place our full faith in Jesus and we see the release of heaven on earth.

C.S. Lewis has said that because we can fathom the idea of heaven, this proves the existence of such a place. We can imagine many things in our minds and hearts. We can visualize a world where disease no longer takes a toll on the lives of those around us. We can imagine how wonderful that can be. However, in the day-to-day battle of reality, these dreams of perfection can fade. We can become saddled down with the slow drain of doubt and depression. This is our fight.

This is also where the beauty of God's perfect plot comes shining through. If Satan is intent on beating us up and destroying us, there will be no end to his pursuit. He will keep pushing it. Indeed, he will raise up an "antichrist," one who will appear to make everything well and good, one who will create a peaceful planet and the appearance of heaven. This antichrist will draw many away from their faith in Christ. However, many more will be drawn to the true power of Jesus as they see the facade of Satan's plan. As things continue to worsen, people will be drawn to the light of Jesus and his healing, where they will find rest and renewal.

Satan ultimately plays into God's hands with each turn. He keeps pushing people into hopeless corners, only for God to be waiting there for the weary soul with compassion and restoration. God cannot lose. Although we are living in intense times, we can believe that God has everything under control and that He is always working things out for good. We close our eyes and look into the future, imagining the day when the reality of heaven can be grasped.

One little thing

2007-02-08T00:10:00.000-05:00

Whoever makes children's clothes with those little snap buttons either hasn't actually had to dress their own child before or is just looking to add an unnecessary challenge into the lives of those who are already challenged with the task of child-rearing.

Zippers are so much better.

Humanness, Free Will, Blade Runner, and A Clockwork Orange

2007-02-07T00:45:00.000-05:00

A conversation I had this past weekend has spurred my thoughts around what it is to be a human with free will. We are autonomous beings, given the right to make choices and decisions. It seems that God, far from being an overbearing control freak, respects us enough to give us freedom of choice. Instead of making us robots, God allows us the ability to choose what is right or what is wrong. We have the capacity for darkness, no doubt. It seems this is absurd, for God to allow the option of evil. However, the other option is for us to only be able to choose the good and that does not make for a legitimate, autonomous being.

God wants us to choose Him, just the same as if we are seriously smitten over another person and we want that person to love us back, by their own heart's choice. The majority of people want someone to love them back, but they don't want someone who has no choice but to love them. It seems cheap that way, for some reason, whereas if the person honestly loves us back, it's a wonderful, satisfying thing of beauty.

I'm reminded of two films, both of which are classics in the sci-fi realm (both of these films are based on classic novels, I might add). I love works of art that delve into themes of identity and the human dilemma. Often times, these are dark works, but by looking at the darkness, we can see our need for the light. One of these films, Blade Runner (which has a mention in a previous post on this blog.... see "Memories and the word, 'Buddy'"), is a foreboding drama, examining the world of androids and their struggle to find identity. The androids have implanted memories, but they believe themselves to be real people. One of the main characters revolts against his creator and murders him for not making him a human. I believe this film explores the real need we have, as humans, to make decisions and to be a unique person. We see the sadness of beings who are all set to "die" after a fixed lifespan and have no real life of their own. The film begs the question, "What does it mean to be human?"

The other film I mentioned was A Clockwork Orange. Ever the controversial movie, this is nonetheless a classic, challenging look into the nature of morality and free will. Upon its initial release, this film generated much public backlash for its gruesome and extreme violence, as well as its unconventional ending. There were some "copycat crimes," based on the movie, that caused the director (the late Stanley Kubrick) to regret having made the film and to stop its re-release in theaters. This is unfortunate, because it's actually an amazing study on the way we are created. This film, more than anything else, illustrates why we are given the right to choose, even if our choices are evil ones that cause harm to others.

At one point in the film, the main character, Alex, is given over to scientists who are trying an experimental way to curb bad behavior. They are forcing Alex to watch, on film, scenes of violence, over and over. Alex is then programmed to have a physical reaction of nausea when he sees these actions. When he is released back into society, he can't even function. When he sees violence, he vomits. Instead of making him a reformed human being capable of functioning in society, he is programmed to be sick and can't even choose otherwise. Is he now a better person? Is Alex now a "good" person? No, he is essentially a robot. In the end, when Alex's treatment is reversed, he is capable of once again inflicting evil on others. As a viewer, I felt that this was better than the other way, although the capacity for evil was present again.

I think we can have profound insight into God's point-of-view on this subject. God, too, could have made us to only choose good. However, in His wisdom, which we will never fully understand this side of heaven, He created us with the capacity to choose good or evil. It's a risk, no doubt, but it's one that God sees fit to sustain. I believe the reward God receives when we choose for His Kingdom is much greater and sweeter than if we had no choice in the matter at all.

WIRED article: The New Atheism

2006-10-22T23:10:00.000-04:00

I read an article this morning in WIRED magazine..... it's chilling to realize that our society is nearing that point where Christians are pushed to the side, marginalized, and even tortured/abused for their faith. Although past times have seen these same extremes (early church, Rome) of Christian-hating, it seems we're nearing that time prophesied in the Bible.

My first encounter with this "no religion" idea came when I lived in New York back in '99. A co-worker and I were discussing faith and eventually, I saw a poster he had in his apartment. This diagram showed all the world faith symbols in a circle. In the middle of this circle was some type of symbol which stood for no religion. This guy was big into Joseph Campbell et al.

From what I've experienced and re-examined after this article, intelligence is the new atheism's god. Indeed, they DO have a faith: in humanity, intellectualism, science and logic. It's funny, because to me, if you look at things logically, there MUST be a God because we are finite. There must be something bigger than ourselves. I think it's so tempting in our day and time to reject God because of all the advances we've seen and are still seeing in technology, science, etc. However, to do so is arrogant and short-sighted. We will all die and our lives will end at some point. We can't go on forever; we can't control our destinies past the time we're given.

All of this reminds me to stay humble and dependent on God. Humanism's rise is creepy, but when I realize how big and all-powerful the God of the universe is, all these somewhat frightening "figures of the new atheism" seem silly. I pity their spiritual blindness and realize they are the ones the Bible speaks of when it says "their minds were darkened."

Another interesting note is how, in the article, they say you can pick apart Christian theology and scripture easily. When you get into details of wording and picking apart how this word might mean this or that, you easily take your eye off the WORD and get your focus onto microscopic linguistic subtlties. It must always be kept in mind that as a believer in Christ, the Bible is inspired by the Spirit of God - it is a living, breathing text. The Spirit illuminates your spirit as you read. Jesus IS the Word. You can't break apart a Person into meanings.

It's all much bigger than rules, fund-raising, and "religion." It's living life with God, in relationship, day to day.
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MuteMath: About to Blast-Off

2006-09-21T22:45:00.000-04:00

Check out MM's newly designed webpage, which features a very cool and well-done promo video:

Mute Math New Tour/Album Promo

Go see them live, if at all possible.

Gap

2006-09-21T21:53:00.000-04:00

A friend and I tonight got to talking. I fleshed out some thoughts I was having while driving to work the other day. When thinking about the evolution vs. creationism debate, you hear all the regular theories. In Barnes & Noble, I saw some book by a brilliant Christian scientist who states that God created the world, but through the mechanism of evolution. I've heard this one before - nothing new. Except that I had a new thought:

God has always been, at His heart, relational. He's always had the fellowship of the Trinity; He's (maybe not always, but for quite some time) had a host of angels around Him in heaven. There was always relationship. So, from what we know of the personality of God, would God create a world that has vast spaces of time where nothing could relate to Him? I'm discounting the idea of God having deep relationship with primordial matter.

From the account in the Bible, God was either in relationship with the Trinity, with the angels in heaven, or with Adam & Eve in the garden at any given time. I don't believe He would have gaps of time waiting for something human, with a soul and the ability to think and relate. It seems inefficient, if not downright wasteful. I also believe God can create human life on the spot - He's that powerful. I'm not sure I see Him waiting millions of years for humanity to come about through evolution (although time as we know it here on earth is like a second to God).

Not that He couldn't do it in this manner. I'm just trying to think about the personality of God and weigh it against an earth that's supposedly billions of years old. What's the point?

Taking Credit

2006-09-18T20:54:00.000-04:00

I was thinking today about taking credit for things. Particularly, when someone has a brilliant, genius idea.... are they to receive all the credit? When Einstein came across the theory of relativity in his thoughts, where did those thoughts come from? There are two avenues to take here: one is the way of humanism, where praise is heaped upon the individual and they are lauded as an amazing mind. The second route is one of ascribing the praise to God. Basically, this boils down to what you believe about the origin of everything.

Where do we get our thoughts? Who or what inspires us when we think? In other words, who/what is our muse?

Does that ever occur to anyone to figure out where our thoughts derive from? If we are blessed with the ability to figure things out and to think abstractly, does it not make sense to give credit to God? However, if God doesn't exist, we must figure out where our cognitive abilities come from.

The question, I think, begs WHY? Why would we think, why would we have a thought that, say, would lead us to create a vaccine for a deadly virus? Why are we even thinking of these solutions? Survival of the fittest, some would say. That makes sense to a certain end. Of course, with the aforementioned situation, we might revisit the question of why would a loving God allow such a deadly virus to exist in the first place?

We can go into that question at another time..... for now, I'm questioning why we think of brilliant ideas. I believe we are given the opportunity to think these thoughts from God. Once again, this question begets another one. Why do some people get the opportunity to think these ideas/discover these amazing truths, while others don't? Who chooses "the lucky ones?" Is it simply "fate?"

We will probably never know what process goes into why an Einstein becomes an Einstein in the annals of history. Food for thought.....

Reflecting on a Journey

2006-07-15T09:59:00.000-04:00

I've been home from my trip to Scotland since June 28th. I've definitely had time to ponder and remember all that happened. Surely, as time marches on, small details forgotten will surface; as I re-read my travel journal, faces will appear on the mind's eye; as I continue to keep in touch with those I met, our relationships will grow until a possible return trip to the lovely land of the Scots.

We had an amazing time. I continually attempt to "keep the flame alive" - spiritually - from all the we experienced in our time there. It's difficult to maintain in this American culture, full of noise and distraction. I've already noticed that I'm reading 2 magazines and 2 books again....all this after watching a movie. Granted, all this media was Christian, but it's overkill at times. A media fast looks inevitable. The great thing in Scotland was that I couldn't use a cellphone. No calls or voicemails for 2 weeks! I also didn't watch TV during that time. It wasn't missed. Some would say that I was "out of touch with reality." I was indeed in a land where the pace is different and we were there for specific purposes, but it was REAL. I suppose the question is: which "reality" is preferable?

Anyway, my main joy upon returning to the States was to rejoin my family. I missed my wife and daughter on this trip. I was blessed with the ability to call them on a calling card quite often, and to use the occasional email/internet connection. I desire to bring them back (plus our new arrival, Henry, who is due on the scene in under 3 months) when God allows in the future.

I made many new friends on the trip. The people were certainly one of the highlights. I loved the accents, all the idiosyncrisies of slang, the slogans of advertising --- the culture in general. It was fascinating. And, of course: the landscape. It's gorgeous. Craggy, cool, wet, green....quaint houses tucked into corners of looming mountains, ocean waters leading into a beach which melts into a crowd of green hills.

I must say, I had wanted to visit the UK since I was in high school. I've only been to a portion of the Kingdom United now, but it was a wonderful preview. I look forward to many more returns.....

Memories and the word, "Buddy"

2006-05-10T22:37:00.000-04:00

My wife and I were discussing how far back we could remember as kids. We came to the conclusion that you believe you are remembering way back, when in reality you only think you can remember back that far. Most likely, your "first memories" are only "memories" based on photos you've seen of yourself at the age of 1-3. I remember thinking I could remember (how's that for a confusing beginning to a sentence?) the birthday party when I was sitting in a plastic swimming pool. Turns out, I was turning 1 year old at that party; no doubt, at some point when I was a kid, I had seen the picture of myself eating cake, wearing Mickey Mouse ears, and sitting in a plastic swimming pool.

This discussion made me think about the classic sci-fi film, Blade Runner. There's a scene in the movie where one of the characters discovers they aren't a real human, but a manufactured android instead. The android believes itself to be real and even defends this belief. Another chracter reveals that the maker of the androids scanned in photographs of young children into the robots' "minds" when they were being made. These photos were processed by the robots' "minds" into "memories," and provided a false childhood for them. The android cries when it discovers this disturbing truth.

The film is interesting because its themes make you ponder the nature of reality and the line between human and computer. Blade Runner is based on Philip K. Dick's novel, "Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?" If you're interested in the fascinating world Philip K. Dick explored in his sometimes unnervingly prophetic books, check out this website. Many of his books have either already been adapted as films, or will be soon.

One last note..... we were talking about the word, "buddy," at work today. Several people asked NOT to be called "buddy." Why is this? There's something inherently condescending about the term, I think. Who knows? It's hilarious because you can't quite pinpoint the reasons. Do YOU like being called, "buddy?"

Maybe I'm crazy, but.....

2006-04-20T21:38:00.001-04:00

when's the last time you went to the local library? I have an overdue book there as we speak (and yes, it's the one I mentioned in the previous post). It's fun to go to a place where you can peruse the books, borrow them for awhile, and read them (if you can find the time). I think so many go to the shiny, bright, new places like B&N or Border's, which are great (heck, I go too, sometimes, and I even worked @ B&N many years ago), but you can only read the crisp books for so long before you have to leave them when the store closes (or you walk out). It's a welcome change to "rent" a book and take it home, enjoying the smell of its history. I've even taken my daughter there to check out the kids' section. I want her to enjoy the library as much as I did as a kid. Maybe she won't, but it's worth a try. At least the librarians like seeing her cute little mug.

While you're at it, take another left turn and try writing a letter. An honest-to-God letter without the email convenience. It'll surprise and delight the heck out of whoever you send it to, because of its odd novelty, and you'll be living the nostalgic dream of the past. A forgotten art, to be sure.

Educating Myself

2006-03-15T19:08:00.000-05:00

When I read or watch the news these days, I'm constantly challenged by the new (to me) names of cities, factions of political parties, and religious leaders mentioned. While I've tried with some effort in the past to educate myself on the Middle East, its history, and the different religious groups represented, I'm taking it a step farther. Currently, I'm reading Bernard Lewis' book, "From Babel to Dragomans: Interpreting the Middle East." I did a bit of research and Lewis is considered one of the foremost scholars on the Mid East. I'm only on the introduction but it's interesting so far. Primarily, my search for greater understanding stems from the fact that I don't understand the difference between Sunnis and Shiites. What has anyone else read that relates to the Middle East and its history? Any good reads?

Expanding

2006-02-13T00:34:00.000-05:00

My wife and I found out that we're pregnant again, this time with child # 2. We're excited and not sure what to expect with having an additional kid to manage. Our first, Zoe, has been alot of fun. Sure, there are those times when you're pushed to the brink and you're re-thinking your life, but all in all, Zoe brings alot of joy, laughter, and wonder to our lives. I'm excited as a Dad to get another blessing. It's amazing how, when you're young and living in a pre-marital state, you have your life planned out and you're pretty sure about what values are. Then, when you get married, that's life-changer NUMBER ONE; priorities shift and you take hard-core classes in the school of selflessness. You can't imagine how, but when you have kids, that's life-changer NUMBER TWO (and THREE, FOUR, FIVE, etc. as far as you can go). Your joint priorities shift yet again and your world changes course to where everything revolves around the kid(s). I would have never thought that I could be living for another person to such a degree, but it's happening. It's my reality each and every day. I love it. I never knew I could have as much energy, putting forth as much effort as I do, with everything motivated by my family. They're my engine.

New MuteMath Promo Video

2006-01-21T11:00:00.000-05:00

I am a huge fan of this band. They have yet to even put out a first, full-length CD, but their EP and their live show has done wonders to create a massive buzz and word-of-mouth for these guys. Check them out when they come to your area and you won't be disappointed.

Here is the promo video

Time

2006-01-15T13:55:00.000-05:00

Time is on my mind as of late. Unfortunately, my Grandmother is now under care at a home and she suffers from dementia. Witnessing this has made me curious as to how the mind works, in relation to memories and time. When she's enduring dementia, time has no definition for her. Memories criss-cross in conversations and there's no difference between something that occurred decades ago (even involving someone no longer living) and something that occurred last year. It's strange and perplexing.

I'm also reading a book, In Praise of Slowness by Carl Honore, which documents the current revolution in slowing down all aspects of life. It's fascinating to see how people are reacting to our modern state of speed lust. One thing that caught my attention the most is the organization (the Long Now Foundation) that's building massive clocks which measure one tick per year; this particular clock measures time over ten millennia. Another thing is the LongPlayer, which is playing a musical composition that lasts 1,000 years. While this may seem extreme, it forces you to re-examine your relationship to time. What's of special interest is the juxtaposition of current, urban life (everything measured by the clock; techno music; stress caused by overpacked schedules) and these movements which highlight the slowness and immeasurability of time. It's like a collision of two opposites: breakneck speed vs. eternity.

One other aspect of time that I've been exploring is Einstein's theories. After watching the film, Donnie Darko, I was intrigued by the idea of time travel. I never believed that it was possible and I still don't. However, I read into what Einstein and other physicists had researched (and this coming from someone who stayed as far away from math and advanced sciences in school as possible) in their careers. It gets into bizarre territory and most of it I've only grasped the faint idea of what they're aiming at (some reading this will undoubtedly already understand more than I do). What they and current experts have found is that time and space affect each other and, ultimately, are one and the same. Without going into details, all of this is based on calculations figuring in the speed of light. So, we aren't going to see any of this evidence with our physical eyes (such as how time slows down the faster you move, for instance, like when you're driving your car). We can't achieve the necessary speeds to witness such phenomenon. Nonetheless, it's very intriguing, especially when you get into ideas such as time portals, black holes, and other dimensions.

Since I'm not a sincere believer that we'll ever be able to go back in time (or forward) or that we can find some portal in the space-time continuum, I can't give myself fully to this. It does make my imagination roam, though. Going further, it makes me think of time and eternity and how God is in control of it all. This world is infinitely complex and our minds can barely make sense of these concepts sometimes. I'm awe-struck at the majesty of this creation and it certainly makes me want to slow down to appreciate it all.

Kingdoms

2006-01-12T00:28:00.000-05:00

I was thinking the other day as I was blowing leaves in our yard and trying to listen to music on headphones.... the recurring thought of the warring kingdoms in the spiritual realm. One is God's Kingdom and the other is Satan's (known as "the enemy"). Simple enough. What strikes me is how much the world we witness today is in the center of this battle. Of course, we see with "earthly eyes" most of the time and cannot see into this other realm. However, if you look at the fallout of events that we can witness with our senses, you can see clear evidence of something going on.

Primarily, an attack is underway and has been underway for quite some time on the family unit. This isn't new knowledge and most likely will seem like a cliched statement to some. But, if we see that God Himself is deeply relational and exists in the family of the Trinity, you would deduce that the enemy would attack such a structure as a family here on earth (I refer to God as "Himself" only for the sake of a way to personify Him as a Being. Of course, God is neither male nor female, but spirit. However, because God is such a deeply relational Being, I refer to Him as a He. The other option, if one is trying to be politically correct, would be to call God, "He/She." However, this doesn't have that personal ring, but rather a more objective tone which defeats the purpose of personification. Imagine calling your Dad, "It," or your parents, "He/She"). In whatever form you see it --- divorce, child abuse, pornography, isolation --- these attacks are gutting the foundations of trust, security, and intimacy in the family. Satan is waging a full-on war against what God would have as one of the greatest blessings here on earth.

People are becoming increasingly isolated and unplugged from a community. There are communities, such as the ones you see online, and even something akin to this blog would be considered a type of community. However, the basic tenets of a healthy community --- trust, friendship, knowledge of another, close proximity --- only go so far with internet-born units of people. You can talk with someone via email or chat for years, but you might never know who they are if you were to pass them by in the airport in person. That face-to-face intimacy that we have with our neighbors, friends, and co-workers is so essential. Even something like that goes awry these days, as an angry co-worker will go into their place of employment and gun down people who might've thought they were just a "nice, quiet person who would never hurt anyone." Do we really know people anymore? Do we take time to know people and invest in them or are we too busy? Does our trust erode and paranoia rise with all this non-intimacy?

We need a massive sort of healing to move in a different direction. What will it be?

Starting something new....

2006-01-11T01:45:00.000-05:00

I wanted to have a forum to express ideas, work out thoughts, and have a general playing field for the mind and spirit. This is that forum. Please feel free to add comments on the articles and insights posted here. I encourage open debate and intellectual discussion, by all means. Thank you for dropping by and I look forward to seeing you again soon. A new article will appear in the near future......

stk